JOELYNTANYIYING. & BABY,ILOVEYOU <3

Saturday, July 15, 2006 ; 9:22 PM

yesterday went to ahma's house.
was rlly dying there okay.
heh, my cousins were all not there.
msged xiuwei since morning. (:
im loving her more&more la
she understand how i feels. (:
yes, she does.
& bloody hell , ivan doesn't want to tell me THAT BIG SECRET.
blast him down la.
after that, went to jurong point.
& I SAW CHYNA !
(: yes, that pretty babe (:
bought a bag, top, earrings, necklaces & a toy chain (:
hehs (:
my fuckedup brother is rlly getting on my nerves la.
sometimes, he can be kind.
sometimes, rlly. buaytahan.
rahs. >:(
went to mccafe to have our desserts.
i dont know what i want la.
then ~ i saw this.
OREO ROMEO CHEESECAKE.
(: i had this , with iced chocolate.
had four of the cheesecake though.
im starting to like cheesecake.
oreo romeo cheesecake , i meant. :D
when i reached home.
i msg-ed cw.
asking him not to be angry with xiuwei.
he's not.
he says that he's just upset & disappointed thats all.
yeahs, i know how he feels la.
& again,
we sort of agured .
heh, we are rlly like opposites la.
he care about the future,
whether he can last with xiuwei anot.
cause he doesn't want to be hurt in the end.
while i.
i dont care .
to me, future doesnt matter
i cared about the present.
what for think so much ?
why cant just think about the present.
& tresure every moment with your loved one.
i dont care if i rlly get hurt in the end.
heh. tsktsk.
me&him. have different things in our minds.
ohwell.
ivan's selling his brakes.
... just to buy that bearbag for me.
heh, i feel so damn bloody bad la.
i rlly dont mind him, giving me a super belated bdae present
a brake leis
can cause death .
fuck me la. i shouldn't had asked him to buy for me.
fuck fuck fuck fuckfuck.
IF, IF ..
you have a stead.& you know,
the very next day.
he/she would break up with you.
what will you do ?
(A) break up with him/her , immediately. before he/she hurt you.
(B) spent the last moment with him/her
i guess, cw would choose (A)
& me. (B) [:

i want to be your closest daugther again.
that daughter whom you shared your joy with.
that daughther whom you shared your secrets with,
that daugther whom you tells everything to.
cause..
i want to know your everything
it does matter to me.
DADDY ~ LCD ME.

i think, im infected with love.
he's bad.
he flirts.
he smoke.
he lied to me.
he doesnt make a good boyfriend.
he has dirty thoughts.
he jio girls & stead with them, as he claims its fun.
those bad points , im clear & aware of it.
but still, i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.
i love you so damn much.
just because of one reason.
a big reason.
making me forget, about him.

i thought we would last.
wo xiang, wo zhi shi yi xianq qin yun
shou bu ke neng de shi.
heh,iwantmyromeoback

why cant the world be virtual ?
in this way, i wont have to face reality.
which has cause me much hurt.
heh. I CANT FACE REALITY.
TOO PAINFUL.
but still,in the end.
i still have to.
its life.
im not fated to be with him anyway.
GIVE ME SOME TIME
.& I PROMISEI WILL FORGET ABOUT HIM
AND BE HIS GUAIGUAI DAUGTHER.