hey yah !
im back from camp.
[: miss me uhs.
ahahas.
anyway going off soon . [:
my korea trip [:
DAY ONE
reached school per normal.
was surpurised to see steph reachg school so damn early.
ahahs.
but she was rather angry larhs.
cause lilian was supposed to meet her but lilian came late.
tsktsk.
but after awhile. they are back. ahahahs.
to thier crazy-ness [:
that secthree steph shouted out ERXIN when we walked pass her class.
obviously lilian, she's callg me a bitch.
TT.TT
ahahahs.
went to east coast.
blast that bus driver larhs.
drive also dont know how to drive derhs.
bring us dont know go where.
we were suppose to go to the national sailing centre.
but he brought us to the national stadium.
>< !
waste our time larhs.
BBLLAASSTT !
ahahas :D
we had some briefg on canoeg.
then ZOOM.
off we went.
towards the sea [:
weets. i parther CHONG YIJIE.
ahahs. she kept complaing that im bad.
& i dont know how to row a boat.
>< ! people first time larhs.
alicia told me that daryl fell.
ahahahs ! too bad i didnt see larhs :(
ahahs .
after that , we had our "amazing race" coral version.
we were playg unti half way then it started to rain.
rahhhs ! >:( .
we were having so much fun lorhs !
nattawut; clarance&joshua were tryg to be warm by using edward's raincoat.
ahahahahs ! wlous ehs ! super funny can !
ahahahs i was laughg all the way.
it rain heavily . =/
sian 1/2 !
at 4 . we set off to ubin [:
we have to walk okay !
all the way to dont know what .
mama island.
whatever shit is that larhs.
we just had a SUPER LONG walk.
on the road ; through the rainforest.
so cool larhs !
[: i like it.
set up tents there.
& had our SOLO walk.
shesssh ! was super scary larhs.
clarance; yuenian & me were wonderg.
what if lilian had choosen 3 stars ?
she would be screamg all the way lorhs !
& sayg her good mornings.
ahahahahs :D.
we have to walk a distance.
with out instructotrs & friends.
then ; pang , its our turn to walk.
girls can be in pair.
while boys can only walk SOLO.
ahahs ! i pity them larhs !
i walked with yijie :D
i ofcourse grabbed her bloody hand.
i cant see anything.
it was hyper dark okay.
heng she's tall enough to see the lights on the leaves.
XP . ahahhahs .
there were instructors station at some places.
to check on us.
gelin&sofia were so slow.
thus, me&yijie caught up.
all of a sudden . gelin screamed.
we were like. what what what ?
then. CHEY ! turns out to be the instructors larhs !
ahahahs !>< ! so funny.
after our long long & tiring walk.
we had milo for supper & went to bed.
lights off at 12.30am ? yeps.
tiring but enjoyable [:
DAY ONE BYEBYE [:
didnt had our showers though.
cause there's no water.
rahhs !
DAY TWO
had to wake up at 7
rahhhs ! >:(
didnt have enough sleep larhs !
kena woken up by gelin's tentmates.
XP had bread & chocolate for breakfast.
unpitch our tents.
we all smell like shit can !
its hyper smelly lorhs !
cant blame us.
there's no water :D
at 8.30 am we were off.
yuenian & clarance are two kind souls [:
they helped me to carry my bags.
oh they rock ! ahahahas ! :D
its been long since i've walked so far lorhs !
rahhhs !>:(
tired ! but worth larhs.
reached the resort where the 2 stars people is stayg.
saw lilian; steph; jiaqi; sihui ; vivien & loads .
ahahahahhas .
gees. lilian misses me . :D im touched. :D
do our rock climbg.
i was the second one [:
was rather scary at first larhs.
but i did manage to climb up.
well. to the fifth one.
[: yuanyun is a pro okay.
she climb to the seventh one .
hakim was the only one whom climb all the way up.
*CLAPS ! :D
after that. we had our high elements.
i didnt play larhs.
im scared of hights & tired.
had lunch.
& then rafting.
my butt were all wet okays !
& i went in the wrong direction TT.TT
at first , i was in the correct track.
but then i dont know why, i lost control of it.
& started to turn left.
rahhhs !
we lost anyway.
but who cares.
as long we have fun .
[: packed our stuffs & off we go.
clarance & yuenian carried my bags on the way back too.
ahahahs ! THANKS !
reached school at 4.55 ?
yeps. we were dead beat.
went home .
guess what i did when i first reached home?
BATHE ! ahahahs !
i really smell larhs.
hais.
i just realised something today.
my ahma is in the hospital.
hais. im totally moodless larhs.
when my mum told me; her tears started to roll down sliently.
she said that ahma dont want to take her medicine. she's stubborn.
& all she say is : " hmms. arhhs. orhhs "
its her mum.
how can she not cry ?
i wanted to pei my mum.
to an wei her.
but i cant =/
im leaving to korea.
hais. i dont want to go larhs.
i want to be her side.
i understand what my mum is going through larhs.
i put myself in her shoes.
i ever tio this type of situation before.
my mum was in the hospital as she was lack of white blood cells.
i cried for 3 days.
hais. i just pray that my ahma will be fine.


HELLO KOREA !(:

weets.
didnt attend school today [:
mum don't allow me derhs larhs.
i wanted to go school.
but dexter says that he's bringing me some where FUN.
so i pon [:
indeed was fun larhs !
went to sbw.
meet some of his friends.
ahahahas !
then i went home; bathe & find off to school.
find yijie [:
today my hair just sucks.
was in a rush larhs.
TT.TT
& richard doesn't recognise me.
that daddy of mine.
rahhhs,. & he stiu owe me sweets !
rahhs ! >:(
only when his friends point out to him that im there.
then he know.
rahhhs ! >:(
saw JASMINE HONEY [: ; shuwen & regina.
they took a cab from ws to our school ?
that taxi driver cheated them okay !
he went a BIG round to coralsec.
when to central then coralsec.
blast his ass off !
cheat people money.
:DD
ahahahs !
they went to diao bastard larhs.
now im at yijie's house [:
using her com [:
yeps yeps. i love her com.
ahahahs.
she's bathing now larhs.
slow pok sehs.
hais. =/
i think im going for the 060606 thingy .
ahahs.
meetg friendster peeps seems fun & interestg.
ahahas !
& let me thx mel for helpg me to buy checkered shirt.
thx uhs. :D

我只能这样下去
对你的希望 ； 变成了失望
ALYL >:(

*yawns .
im tired larhs.
today whole day out okays.
alicia pon school today.
i wanted to.
but since yuanyun & steph will miss me.
so in order not to let them.
i went school today.
rahs. was bored okays !
rahhs ! >:(
we had some sports game thingy.
BORING ! D:
watched people play caption's ball.
im sian of it lerhs.
rahhs.
okays. jing shen dont look like richard.
i have a comparesion today.
ahhas.
richard was walking with jing shen .
then i stare stare stare.
& my conclusion.
my eyes got problems.
ahahahs.
they dont look alike.
:D
during recess .
yijie&geraldine played badminton with a paper ?
ahahahs !
yijie claims that she's a badminton player during her primary school years.
I DOUBT THAT !
ahahahs !
her movement like ..
wow. nerd larhs !
RETARD ! ahahahs !
:DD .
but retard in a cute way.
ahahahs ! :X
opphs ! ahahahs !
after school.
yuanyun went home :(
i went for dance meetg.
rahh.s boliao .
what MOExcel performance at our school.
then got pratices .
ohwell.
nvrm ; i enjoy it [:
i was kind enough to find lilian when she asked me to
[: so kind right ?
IM A KIND SOUL .
ahahas
went to 603 playground there ?
ahahahs !
& thx mel for the treat !
had some stupid childish games larhs !
:DD . blind mice , truth or dare , crocodile.
tsktsk !
how old are we lerhs ?
ahahahs .
wanted to ask gabriel to come down.
but he went to his friend's house.
hais. not fated larhs !
ohwell .
blast my brother okays !
he went 230 without me again !
:( i ask him to wait for me.
but he went off with dexter.
he came up my house & asked my mum for permission.
& my mum agreed !
then later PANGSEH !
wlous. never wait for me jiu go lerhs :(
that boxim brother ran off.
while dexter need take something from friend.
boohhoo. my mum doesn't allow me to go 230 without dexter larhs !
rahs >:(
wth .
there's some stupid spammers do my quiz.
fuck him/her larhs .
at first i thought was jabez.
but he said no.
so i believed him.
wlous.
spam what spam larhs .
fuck mans. MF larhs !
blast you off ! >:(
hais.
that secthree steph called me a bitch larhs.
with a bunch of NT guys.
hais. ohwell.
wo derh ming yun .
ahahahs !
i dont give a damn larhs.
cause i have friends whom love me !
so i won't huanlo so much larhs !
afterall ; only like 2 more days left ?
then holidays !
one month dont need see her.
SONG BO ! :D

LET GO & FORGET .

Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But sometimes I just felt I could give up
But you came and you changed my whole world now
I'm somewhere
I've never been before
Now I see
What love means

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be
In my heart in my head it's so clear now
On my hand you've got nothin' to fear now
I was lost and you've rescued me somehowI'm alive
I'm in love you complete me
And I've never been here before
Now I see
What love means

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me

And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought
I'd be
When I think of what I have
And this chance I nearly lost
I can't help but break down and cry
oooh yeah break down and cry

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfallI feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be
Now I see
What love means
<3

o_O .
my brother is away.
playing basketball with dexter&friends at 230
i wanted to tag along.
but mum says it too late.
rahhs. its not fair okays !
boys always are allowed to go out late at night.
while girls can only stay at home & stare at the four walls.
rahhhs. >:( . how sian can it be ?
dexter say he's gotten teach me how to shoot 3 pointer [:
weets ! [:
today was rather boring ?
we watched coach carter .
:D was rather funny&touching lorhs .
:D but i didnt cry .
okays; a bit.
a tiny WINY BIT :D
at first i was like wow.
lilian didnt come.
but in the end she did.
ahahahahas . :D
she's hyper high today ?
she went mad.
i feel a bit weird larhs.
wondering she okay ?
hais. ohwell.
lilian ; if got any problems must go tell people derhs larhs.
cannot like that keep in the heart larhs.
okay ? cause it hurts more.
:D hahahahs .
ALOYIOUS HAS A LARGE NOSE ! :D
ahahahahs. so funny larhs !
:DD .
rahhs. im bored of free periods.
too much of a good thing is not good.
hahas. :D
hais. its like 2 hours of boredom.
how bored can it be ?
i think tmrw is gotten to be worst ?
hais. :(
steph ; lilian & i were talking about er mo zai shen bian .
:D leaving alicia gongong.
:DD . tsktsk.
kept making alicia malu .
ahahahs. about the incident.
:DD
the NA guys wanted to find yuenian daiji ?
just because one diao then like that .
wlous.
FORGIVE&FORGET.
like me ;
i've forgiven two people.
that ZHARBORH & sigrid.
after school. stpeh went missing.
i cant find her anywhere :(
KOH ! WHERE YOU GO LARHS ! :DD.
yuanyun ; sihui & alicia had lunch in school.
exchanged bags with yijie.
she took mine & i took hers
ahahahs.
so funny larhs !
i like her bag though.
it suits me.
ahahahs ! :DD
& then ZOOOM !
went to tampines.
as usual we had to wait for DUA PAI CHONG YIJIE
ahahas.
while waitg got her.
i saw jerold.
o_O he changed lorhs !
but stui short.
hmms.
i like 7 months never see him lerhs ?
i doubt he recognised me larhs.
nevermind. later he online i go ask him
:D .
see that kor of mine stiu rmb he got this mei anot.
ahahas !
i'll kill him if he dont.
:D
had swensen's .
:DD .
sihui saw her ex primary school friend ?
she claims that she's an action bei deh .
by the looks of hers.
yeahs. can tell.
plus she a so called. "cheer leader"
cheer leaders are all dao-ers .
action kias.
i took a picture of the icecream.
before&after.
ahahahs. it funny can.
me&yijie went zilian-ing with my phone.
i will upload soon [:
laugh to death larhs !
yijie hyper CUTE ! :D
went shopg.
YAYNESS ! my fave [:
saw some yandaos on the way =X
ahahahahahhs ! KIDDING !
went to popular .
:D buy wrapping papers.
me&yijie played over there.
like 10 yearsold kids larhs !
all her fault lorhs ! influence me ! :D
so funny larhs she.
make me laugh like siao.
rahhhs ! :DD
then alicia&sihui went off :(
they got tuition at 8
SAD ! D:
aahahahahas
i played arcade .
rockerfever4 [: YAYNESS !
8stars. PASS !
ahahahhahs .
o_O i saw a lady catch the soft toy.
wlous. its a MICKEY mouse okays !
i was like. WOW!
then the acrade uncle said.
<>
the toy was place in such a position where even a blind people can catch lorhs !
wlous. :(
im broke. if not i surely go play lerhs !
MICKEY MOUSE LEHS ! :(
o_O
I SAW IVAN LIM SOON PING !
wlous. he changed okays.
more yandao ofcos.
ahahas. really .
he kinda slim down ?
yeps yeps.
that small eyes of his is soso cute ! ahahas.
he grew taller :(
BOOHOO ! D:
i cant stop thinkg larhs !
ivan lim. ahahahs.
& for goodness sake. i dont like him.
i just find him cute ;
ahahas.
really larhs !
too bad he's in puggol :(
he wanted to enter coral.
but i dont know why .
he chose puggol in the end.
oh well.
nevermind that.
on the way home . saw gelin & mdm lina.
tio 4D also not so lucky lorhs !
mdm lina. HMPHS !
fcuking give attitude.
people say hi dont know how to reply.
think what ?
teacher so what.
PUI ! KNS ! ahahas.
yijie say that she want to be my mummy.
as she claims that she's taller than me.
okay; she is.
yijie : arbo i be your mummy ?
me : huhs ? my mummy ?
me : then your hubby is richard lorhs.
ahahahs ! YIJIE&RICHARD !
HAND IN HAND ! WOOTS ! :D
yijie : WHAT THE .. richard ? why him ?
me : cause he's my daddy . ahahas.
yijie : no way larhs ! i want to be your mummy.
throw that richard aside [:
me : too bad. i knowledge him early lerhs.
so cant . SAD ! ahhahas. so stiu want to be my mummy ? MUM . :D
yijie :eeee. NO !
ahahahs. i dont know why yijie so dislike richard lorhs.
YAYNESS !
I LOVE YIJIE MORE&MORE !
ahahahs.

let have it this way ;
i'll pretend that i dont know you.
& you'll pretend that you dont know me.
this way. i wont be so hurt.
when i looked into your eyes.
im lost.
till now ; i found out ...
love or not . both cannot be forced.

rahhs. im bored.
i miss school again !:D
but i think school's gotten be another boring thing ?
fuck life larhs.
& to those whom haven take my quiz.
please do take it [:
http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/linkquiz03.php?quizname=060517093544-792882
:DD
wlous. i just created it
& what. i got some unknowns in it.
wth ? rahhs.
blast thier ass off.
please . no spammers.
fuck them larhs !
i hate spammers.
RAHHS !
my cousins didnt come today [:
no more noise pollutions
*clap clap .
i got my green nail polish [:
some brand named nail lacquer
quite nice. [:
cause its green. :DD
i've packed my stuffs.
the things that i'm bringing to camp is not heavy at all.
[: . im afraid of the dark larhs.
how ?! rahhs.
& the worst thing is that we are not allowed to bring our phone along.
can die larhs !
i NEED to msg people.
those people to an wei me ! :D
die lerhs larhs.
later got ghost how ?
choychoy ! :D
alexang just had my quiz.
& he only scored 10 !
:DD .
sad larhs.
my kor doesnt know me well.
:( . ahahhahahahs
its pathetic :D
___________________________________________________
Name 3 things in your purse/backpack/POCKET:
; MIRROR [:
; phone
; wallet

Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed:
; though he's not a thing but its stiu him
; THAT PHONE rahhs.
; tears that are rolling non stop since the day i knew the truth. hais

Name 3 favorite places to shop.
; CINELEISURE
; FAREST
; BUGIS [:

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis:
; HOME
; SCHOOL
;TOLIET :D { i need the mirror } [:

Name 3 favorite fruits:
; LONGAN ! [:
; strawberries ! always make me sweet ! :D
; oranges [:

Three names you go by:
; him
; WEI HAO :)
; him again . hais

Three things you are wearing right now:
; crown necklace.
; pokemon shirt :D
; bra :DD

Who is in the house with you?
; HOs. here i go.big aunt. ahma. maid. brother. mum . dad. small aunt. her hubby. cousin ; belle & brendan & lastly a DOG [:

Who are you thinking about right now?
; LOLs ! JOSH ! :D

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
; hmms. weihao [:

Whose birthday is next?
; xiaojia's & then IANTAN ! :D

Who do you wish you were with right now?
; gordan
; steph
; WEIHAO
those people whom make me laugh real hard.& make my worries far away [:

Where do you live?
; THE EAST SIDE ' pasir ris im sick of it. i want it to be in the west. hais.

Where is your pillow?
; its on my bed. ==

Where are your parents?
; mum&dad. enen aiai. hand in hand. watching tv :D

Where do you sleep?
; in my aunt's room *
i dont have much freedom. =/

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
; ba some ma lum :D

Where is the last place you took a ride to?
; from weihao's hse to mine :D

Where in your house are you?
; hais. LIVING ROOM . rahhs. >:(

What was the last thing you ate?
; chocolate cake ! [:

What color shirt are you wearing?
; yellow , red, blue, white & light pink
LOLs

What is the closest item near you that is black?
; my hair :D

What is your favorite color?
; GREEN [: . purple. black & white

What kind of surgery have you had?
; HELL NO

What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
; shorts. to show off my flabby thighs. :D

What is the last movie you watched?
; hmmms. ice age two ? with JABEZ :D
its been a long time since i last saw him

What song do you currently hear?
; maddeline's blog song.
neng bu neng zai kao jing yi dian dian by lara [:

What was your dream last night?
; hmms. i was friends with renfred & yiyuan . ahahahs

When did you start school?
; 4 [:

When is your birthday?
; 28th july * [:

When did you last go to the mall?
; yesterday. paragon [:

When was the last time you bought a pair ofpants?
; last friday [:

When did you last burn a candle?
; last year , 20th aug .
it burnt so lovely-ly .

When did you last see your dad?
; he's slam hard on my mind larhs ! rahhs !

When did you last see your mom?
; she's beside me. rahhs.

When did you last see your best friend?
; 10may [:
CLEOGOHYUXIN.
outside HSC [:

When you wana see someone you love ?
; now. but i know i cant. i dont have that courage to face him. to look into his beautiful eyes. im a coward ; whatever. i just cant face reality. with him by my side. hmphs. IMPOSSIBLE . i just want his attention ; his care. thats all i wanted. contended. but i know. he will never. his heart is no longer here. is there . far away from here. & its lock in her heart.

woke up super early today though its a sat.
:DD .
i cant sleep larhs !
on the way to the CC ;
guess who i saw ?
RUBEN YAP ! :D
he's stiu a shorty.
TOO SAD FOR HIM ! :D
i was at the CC early.
& as usual. steph was late.
wow. its been a long time since i've dance.
i missed it soso much.
:DD
i feel so shiok after jazz.
though sticky but i enjoy it
:DD .
steph was talking about the er mo zai shen bian
acted by YANDAO he jun xiang & raine .
:DD.
so funny larhs.
my aunt & dad fetched me home.
hohos. steph can really make me laugh.
that peanut brain of hers. :D
she make me laugh real hard.
:DDDDD
went home,
bathe & changed.
wlous. i looked so funny when my hair are wet.
:DD
its like only a few hairs niahs ! :D
then ZOOOOM .
off to uncle's hse.
baby josh's one month.
gees. he's so CUTE !
& my cousins went too !
:DD .
yeps yeps ; yes i love them !
they were super funny&lame.
that cousin of mine was there too [:
i told him my things .
he cheered me up ! :D
I LOVE HIM LARHS !
COUSIN WEI HAO ! :D
but after a while he went home lerhs . :(
he said here was bored so went home :(
hais. rahhs.
hope we can go holiday together again !
when im with him.
my troubles & worries seems so far away .
[: .
i went to paragon with him;my brother ; his sister & dad.
to take my phone.
on the way ;
i saw the super bands compeitors.
i saw a bunch of siao gi na's .
waving at them.
they were on the bus.
a double decker bus without cover.
then; outside taka.
saw that small little boyboy playing the drums set.
wlous. its very cool okay.
he's like only 5 ?
& played it so well.
i envy him larhs !
:DD.

yes i love you.
but i can only love you till the exstand of gan-s .
i cant love you anymore.
i dont have that feelings for you.
sorry for that disappointing answer.
i've learnt my lessons.
i dont want to hurt anyone anymore.
espically you .
you understand me.
i cant bear to hurt you.
you are my dear.
the only thing that i can say its sorry.
you said you aint serious.
but i can tell you are.
dont lie to me. cause i know you well.
i know that i've broke your heart by giving that answer.
but its the only chioce.
i cant say an answer which i dont want.
if i've really agreed.
i know; i wont be happy neither do you.
you dont really love me.
you love for the sake of loving.
you said that you will helped me to forget him
i know you cant & i wont.
that lessons told me that i cant.
nobody can.
gan-s is the best way.
for me to love you.
& for you to love me.
steads aint for us.

YAYNESS !
GREEN ! :DD .
today lilian didnt attend school.
gees. vivian&lina were like so quiet without her.
its like. it seems so quiet without lilian lorhs !
:DD
we had free periods all the way.
how bored can it be ?
its damn boring okays.
BUT during recess.
a twist . :DD
me&alicia went pass mel's class to get the tie.
then he was so slow larhs.
so i went to the toliet to have a drink ....
alicia : {hitting the wall}
me : {standing there; watching alicia}
the fire alarm's glass broke.
alicia : ooh ooo ..
me : {staring at her}
the fire alarm went off.
:DD
then; the whole school went mad.
:DD.
so funny larhs !.
alicia is like DIEDIEDIE !
:DD.
so funny. :DD
alicia accidentally broke the fire alarm's glass.
as she was hitting on the wall
:DD
we had assembly.
i thought it wouldn't be so boring.
but it was worse larhs !
damn. i fell asleep.
:DD.
my mum is angry at my dad for one bloodyassy reason.
my dad didnt fed her instead fed the fishes.
im like wth ?
:DD.
my mum is petty lorhs !
went to tampines to get my jeans.
& my GREEN nail polish. [:
went to M1 shop.
i was Q-ing there.
then i saw daryl&zisheng.
daryl walked toward me.
wanting to talk to me.
but when he saw my mum.
he was like shocked lorhs !
then ran away !
:DD.
so funny larhs !
my mum says that he's cute.
*faint ! he's inmature larhs !
:DD
saw my mum's crews too
ALL 15-iers. :D
one of them fought with her mum.
& she was out with her friends to relief her anger.
guess what.
my mum gave them half an hour lecture.
wlous ! :DD
bought a new phone
nokia N70 [:
YAYNESS ! :DD
ZOOM.
went to cut my hair at jeanyip.
[:
i love my hair now.
[:
totally in love.
its so cool.
:DD.
& i finally bought guangliang's&tank's CD
[:
LALALAs.
i bought quite a number of things today [:
hmmms.
jeans; crown necklace; phone protector;
yeahs. [:
LALALALLALALAs.
to steph : jealous right ? :DD

he's not worth
im stupid. im dumb.
to fall for this stupid you.
im aware of everything you do.
i notice you.
but do you ?
:D . stupid question.
the answer is obvious.
SORRY !
your everything hurt .
i cant blame you for not caring.
cause you dont have that feelings for me.
i wont bother you anymore.
________________________________________________________________
How are you today?
- tired .

What song are you listening to right now?
- guang liang's & tank's [:

What was the last thing you ate?
- hmms. pear ! [:

What are the last four digits of yourphone no?
- 9298

How many TVs do you have in yourhouse?
- sadly to say two :(

Who do you tell your dreams to?
- my dog. :D

Do you believe in love?
- yeps [: it sucks alright. hais

Do you believe in love at first sight?
- yeps. its also sucky. :D

Do you want to get married?
- yeps. i want to know whats XINFU [:

Dream guy - GIRLS ONLY!
- i dont have a dream guy.my dream guy is just that idoitic him :D

Curly or straight?
- straight ; DUH.

Tall or short?
- hais. SHORT ! :(

Good boy or bad boy?
- nan ren bu huai . nu ren bu ai :D

Hat or no hat?
- NEITHER. hats make me scratch. rahhs.

Ears pierced or not?
- A BIG HELL YES ! :D

Dimples?
- narhhs. :( i wished to have a pair.two deep&cute ones. [:

Smart or dumb?
- im not that dumb nor that smart.:D

Boxers or briefs?-
boxers ! :DDDD

Funny or romantic?
- more romantic adding a teaspoon of funny ! :D

Do you like your handwriting?
- nopes.cause i cant write my "N" & "R" properly. hmphs ! :D

If you were another person,would you befriends with yourself?
- yeps ! :D why not.

What do you miss the most right now?
- that smile of his & hers. :D

What are you thinking of right now?
- sleep

What are you doing right now?
- trying to sign in msn which is getting on my nerves. fuck it.

Do fish have feelings?
- TSK ! OFCOS !

How do you release anger?
- SOL . shout out loud.let it GOGOGO ! :D

Where is your second home?
- cleo's house. i know every single thing there [:

Do you trust others easily?
- narhs. :D

what class in school do you use as "naptime"?
- MATHS;CHINESE;ENG.
mrs chung. TEACHER yuan . mrs low

Are you in love with someone?
- hmmms. nopes. no love. AIMEI

Ever been on TV or in the newspaper?
- narhs. :( i wished to be some day. :D

What do you do when you're sad ordepressed?
- dont eat. have that stupid face & cut . :D

What are you worried about right now?
- about me . having no guts to let go . :D& that korea trip. :D

Sunrise or sunset?
- BOTH. looks the same to me :D

Staying up late or waking up early?
- STAYING UP LATE ! :D

Do you have a crush?
- hmms.

If so, do they know?
- HELL NO. i shut my mouth tight.

How many kids do you want?
- FOUR. :DD

Can you raise one eyebrow?
- yeps.

can you cross your eyes?
- yeps ! :D

Do you make your bed daily?
- narhs. a maid is for ? :D

Which shoe do you put on first?
- dont know.

Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrownone at somebody?
- :D YES ! . KEFFEE DOGGY ! :DD

On average how much money do youcarry with you?
- hais. im broke larhs

Have you ever colored/highlighted yourhair/what color?
- narhs. but wanting to.

you plan on going to college?
- dont know. i dont have much plans for the future.

you're completely broke right now
- HELL YES :(

What time is it now?
9.33pm & I STILL CANT SIGN INTO THAT FUCKING MSN ! RAHHHS !

LOLs ! im using sihui's fave colour again ! >< !
got back results today yarhs ? :DD
maths - 79/100 [: { paperone- 32/50 papertwo-47/50}
chinese - 60/100 {main paper 41/[i've forgotten ]}
lit - 70/100 [: {POEM-15/20 R&J-25 /40 EDWARD-16/20 }
geography - 75/100 [: {sectionA - 18/20 sectionB - 15/20 sectionC-42/60}
science - 59/100 :[ {OTAS - 17/30 OTHERS - 42/70}
art - 52/100 :DD{ partone- 27/50 parttwo-25/50 }
yups. thats about it.
i havent got back my english ?
hais. the most worried subject.
anyway ;
SIHUI OWE ME MCD ! :D
i won her in maths.
thus she owe me one as we had bet with one another.
the loser treat the winner
thx god. by only a mark. [:
she scored 78 [: LOLs !
but still. i beat her ! [:
damn that alicia sng.
rahhhs. 83.5 for science & 88 for maths.
how pro can she be ? RAHH ! .
my science results have disappointed me though.
hais.
oh nvrm. ;DD i cant believe my art just got 52 ? :DD
i had a bet with lilian. [:
if my compo win her. i've to treat her drink.
& if i lose to her. she would have to treat me drink.
surprised to be this way ?
cause its like noway i can beat lilian .
she's smart in english :DD
steph is complaining & winding about mdm lina being bisas
:DD
we watched swing girls ;
its a jap show. [:
its sososososososososo NICE !
so funny larhs !
as usual that mrlim didnt allow us to watch finish.
blast him.
rahhs. after that went for the camp thingy.
we have to bring loads of things.
& we also have to report to school as usual.
like wth ?
why cant we sleep abit longer ? hais !
:DD. the latest we reached back school is at 6pm ?
im gotten be tired lorhs !
i will comfirm sleep on the plane like a pig ! >< !
then ZOOOM !
went off to tampines with steph.
saw lina;vivian;joelynliau on the way there.
me&steph went in that puzzle shop.
i have trouble figuring what to buy for my mum larhs !
so many things there.
all so NICE ! :DD
i wanted to buy the biggest one.
cause its the nicest
but it cost about 110$ .
so narhs.
i bought two small ones.
19.90$ EACH.
im broke !
i stiu owe yuanyun 10$ hais.
ohyahs. & steph 5$
im that poor now.
went home.
& i did that puzzle thingy.
i finished in an hour or two ?
PRO ! :DD.
my mum loves it.
she asked for the cost.
i said 36.80$ ;
she said that i should have just bought one.
i know its expensive larhs mum.
but its worth it.
your love for me.
& those things that you bought for me.
of course its worth!
if i really had 110 $ with me.
i will surely buy that big puzzle derhs ! [:
my mum bought loads of clothes for me for the korea trip.
im like so gandong lorhs !
she bought me a jacket; two shirts; jeans; shoes & masks LOLS.
[:
ILOVEMYMUM BEST ! LOLs

my brother failed his chinese ! :DD. finally ! i've been waiting for this day to come ! he have to sleep outside& cant use the com ! YAYNESS ! the com is MINE ! :DD rahhhhs ! my cousin is crying all day long & im sick of it. rahhhhhs !! i cant stand it lerh larhs ! im going mad. :DD ; currently listening to ahma's sweet sweet stories :D with ahgong of cos :DD hais. why doesnt my blog's song played ? only like my com can listen niahs ? tsktsk. :DD


01.Your name plus "y"?
JOELYNY ? LOLs

02. Two feelings at the moment?
sad&sad ? :D nolarhs. mostly mad. hais. :D

03. What are you listening to right now?
dou shi ni ! :DD
rahhs. freakky bastard. my blog's song just wont play ! SOS !

04. A part of a song lyric that's in yourmind:
wo derhs ri ji li xie mian derhs dou shi ni derhs ming,
how true can it be ? :DD

05. Describe where you are right now?
living room. rahhhs.

06. The highlight of your week?
wednesday ? i cant wait to go back school ! i miss sch larhs ! :D

07. What are you craving to have rightnow?
HIM . :DD
NONONONONONOONO
HELL NO

08. Any unforgettable childhood memory?
hais. i have bad memories larhs !

09. A not-so-good childhood memory?
?

10. What are your nicknamesxuann`
auntie tan - CLEO . joe - alicia . ahlynn - yuanyun. ahtan - mel . yeahs that ohyahs.
one more. zhu jiao - IAN TAN WEI JIAN & EDMUND TAN CHU YANG . should be. :D

11. Your three plans for tomorrow?
find who the hell is aloysious& zi siong. :D

12. Your three plans for today?
shopping ? (=

13. Are you thinking of someone rightnow?
HELL NO ! [:

14. Ever gotten drunk before
once. i was so upset that i drank alot. like 5 cans ? :D .

16. Are you single?
yeps. glad to be. [:

17. Say something to the person who posted this before you?
she was my jie so HELLO JIE ! :D dots.

18. What do you want?
hmms. i want to be loved ? :D
LAME LARHS !
i want to go high today. i want meet jasmine eng. i want to pon school with dexter .
i want to go out late at night . & LASTLY I WANT A TATTO ! :D

19. Fill in the blank
blank ? wheres the blank ? LOLs

20. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers.
what ?

21. Are you feeling hungry?
yeps.

22. Who do you miss right now?
hmms . i missed my smile. LOLs.

23. Last friend you talked to online?
AHMA ! :D

`24. What do you like about night?
the stars. shining so brightly in the sky. :D
when i can think of nth at all & go to sleep. [:

26. When you were a kid, what did you want to bewhen you grew up?
DANCER ! LOLS

27. Last gift?
that bear. =/

28.Did you like it?
HELL NO.
given by a bastard. why should i ? fuck it
im giving it away. :D

29. What song did you last hear?
yueding ! [:

`30. Your good luck charm?
lucky charm ? hmmmmmmmmms .

31. Person you hate most?
hais. fuck him larhs.

32. Who makes you laugh the most?
:D THAT HORNY TANSIHUI LORHS ! still got who ? :DD
& stephanie kohkohkoh !

33. Are you in love?and is your love sincere?
rahhhs. love just suck okays. narhs. itsjustAIMEI.

geees. im using sihui's fave colours :DD. anyway ; im bored so i did this :DD

1. DREAM NAME:
- what for to have a dream name when i love my name soso much ?
JOELYN TAN YIYING [:

2. WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING INLIFE?
- FRIENDS [:

3. CURRENT CELLPHONE RINGTONE:
- twinkle twinkle little stars [:

4. FAVORITE PLACE IN THE MALL:
- ARCADES. [:

5. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD:
- the present feelings im having now.

6. FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOUWAKE UP IN THE MORNING:
- FOOD ! [:

7. MOST EMBARASSING CD IN YOURCOLLECTION:
- ehhhs. hmmmms. i cant rmb. [:

8. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME:
- JOSH. [: dont ask why

9. FAVORITE BAD GUY:
- bad guy are guy. why would there be love bewteen bad guys & good girl :DD

10. BY CHOICE, A TIME MACHINE WILL TAKEYOU WHEN AND WHERE?
- when i was young. when i dont know whats love. when i never had tasted loving someone & at the same time. being loved by relatives&parents [:

11. IF SOMEONE WAS MADE RULER OF THEWORLD (dead or alive), WHO SHOULD IT BE?
- ME ! :D

12. IF YOUR PRESENT G/B FRIENDSUDDENLYBECAME YOUR EX?
- hmmms. no big deal ?

13. TV SHOWS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH?
- hmms. no tv show but TANSIHUI 's productions can ! :D

14. SONGS THAT MAKE YOU CRY:
- guang liang - yueding; duo shi ni
- tank's - gei wo ni derhs ai
THOSE MEANINGFUL ONES [:

15. FEEL GOOD SONGS YOU WANNA SHARE?
- lian ai - ING. THE BEST . [:
SHIMMY SHAKE :D

16.PEOPLE WILL BE SURPRISED IF:
- im not using the com or talking madly :D

17. ESTIMATED NUMBER OF TIMES YOU EVERPUKED FROM ALCOHOL:
- never [: i can handle alcohol. SMALL CASE :D

18. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?
- all i want for chirstmas is my two front teeth. :DD

19. WHAT'S GONNA BE YOUR WEDDINGSONG
?- :D good one . hmms . i know i love you [: . my aunt's one.

20. DESCRIBE YOUR TYPICAL SATURDAYNIGHT IN VIVID DETAIL:
- rahhs. i had bad memories.

21. WHAT SONG ALWAYS GETS YOU IN AROMANTIC MOOD?
- hmmms. NONE

22.YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER YOU WANT TORECEIVED FROM YOUR GF/BF?
- green orchard flowers. [: if possible.

you guys should go listen to guang liang's yueding. super meaningful. hais. i almost cried ? yeahs. hais ; rahhhhs ! i've skipped tuition today [: . im sick . X( gees.
GABRIEL IS A BIG&LOUSY DUCK ! :DD

today went tightening [: when i came down from the bus. guess who i saw ? THAT RETARDED & THAT BULL PIG ! wlous so funny larhs ! steph was late again. tsktsk. went to compass point , tighten. changed to super light green . cant see; ahdui. went to CINELEISURE [: , then heeren . then bugis & back to orchard. that athera shop was selling super nice things lorhs ! bugis street toos ! wlous; so tempting larhs. i laughed like dont know what larhs ! all steph's fault can. we msg-ed gabriel ; ehs. you know where got sell red bra with laces ? funnyfuckingfunny larhs !
LOLs ! reached home at 0745. & you know what. my mum didnt kp ! & i was only gone for half a day my doors are painted ORANGE ! eeks
yesterday i had a fun talking on the phone with gabriel&cleo. [: its been so long lerhs ! chatted for 2 hours plus ? yeahs ! FUNFUNFUN ! gabriel sounds like jovain. tkstsk.

hais. fuck that daddy of mine. end up still break. wlous ehs. can you not be so flirt ? you broke how many heart lerhs ? BLASTYOU rahhs. ohwell. cant really blame him ? the feelings have gone. hais. i just hop e that he can find someone whom he really loves ? and both of them have a happy ending together ? hais. LOVE is always like that ; CRUEL. love dont give people any chances. any hopes. hais

yesterday went to find CLEO ! [: weets. i love finding her [: . gees ; i had to waiy for her like for 45mins ? two guys talked to me ? XDD ! so funny larhs. one of them asked. girl, you waiting for friend arhs ? i said yarhs. he asked who. i said cleo. another asked cleo girl or boy arhs ? i was like diaos. of cos girl larhs. one more idiotic questions from them cleo real name is cleo ? diaos lorhs ! XD, they asked. cleo chiobu ? io said yarhs. ofcos [:. then they went asking around ehs. who is cleo arhs ? sectwo derhs girl arhs. you sure she's a chiobu ? cos we know all the chiobu in hsc lehs OFCOS CLEO IS A CHIOBU larhs ! tsktsk. i had fun talking to them ? yeahs. they had a angmo friend. he said wow, flirt arhs that guy replied what larhs. bastard lehs you angmo : kao peh larhs i was shocked ! angmo talked hokkien ! LOLs ! so funny lorhs. XDDD ! 17VS14 [:. this song lyrics is too meaningful. duo shi nie hais,


now i can differentshape whats true love&puppy love
true love is hard to let go
while puppy love easy super easy
true love let one party suffers
while puppy love dont. cos the feeling aint true
true love hurts while puppy love nevers
true love ? hais.
its hard to love . love is too difficult for me to handle
thus , SINGLE is still the best chioce
i cant forget that aimei period
when my heart beat so fast
when my eyes cant take it off you
when you looked at me
how i wished to be with you
IMPOSSIBLE
your heart belong to hers.
not mine. im sorry.
wo tai zai yi lerhs
. why cant that lucky girl be me ? yuan fen , hais
to be continued

hais. why must you advoid her ? you want a breakup just say. dont need to run like a coward. just say. say how you feel & why you want a breakup. dont ever avoid people. dont you know the feeling of being avoided ? it hurts you know. it really does. come to your senses daddy ! SAY YOUR FEELINGS OUT ! [:

finally larhs. i know how to do THE WHOLE D&T papers okay ! [: so proud of myself you know [: gees. LALALAS . maths paper 2 was so much easier than paper 1 can. tmrw is art&listening. after that. CELEBRTIONS ! yayness ! can go out. can go mad. can do anything i want. [: no body can control me now. gees. im gotten tighten my braces this saturday ? gees. im scared larhs. steph will be tagging along too [:

090106

TOIXCATED LOVE

teach me how to love someday

rahhhs. D&T is making me dizzy ! i cant remeber anything okays ! rahhs. WOOD; PLASTIC; METAL sheeshh. today had maths&lit . maths was quite hard ? yeahs. though i did finish in 20 mins but i only do those questions which i know how to do. hais. i think i wont be able to get A1 for maths. ohwell. we had one&an half hours recess. [: SHIOK ! XD wlous larhs. i was standing there, enjoying the breeze. jiaqi was next to me. then alex appeared. she shouted. JOELYNTAN a lot of times. wanting alex to turn. but too bad he didnt. so she shouted. [ JOELYN TAN LOVES ALEX ] i was like wth ?. i dont like him larhs ! okay. i admit okay. i USED to liked him. now , nopes. the feelings is slowly gone [: . i did it . i've learnt to let go. later he come bhb to me larhs ! gees. lit was okay ? the poem was quite easy. ROMEO&JULIET part was also easy. i like that part where we were asked to write to romeo assuming we are juliet. saying that "i" will be marrying paris & not him. i wrote alot ? yeahs. [:

i know i can

& i really did

i should be happy now .

but why does my heart feel so heavy ?

im using blue. as my mood is blue today. -.- oh gees. chinese i had rarely enough time to check my papers. hey , its only one&an half hour ? how am i suppose to read finish five different passages ? rahhs. im a slow reader. i admit. hais . science was okay ? yeahs. the equations were quite easy. i love cracking my brain. call me sick or whatever. i just love that kind of feeling [: i cant remember anything for digestive systems. gees. all my efforts. & sorry lilian. i pangseh you again ? SORRY ! [: all thanks to MADDELINE X) ; im addicted to tank's wo men xiao shi hou . its too nice. i cant wait for his album to be released in singapore ! QUICK QUICK QUICK !