JOELYN

2006-09-22T21:39:00.000-07:00

sorry readers for not updating ! :D
downloading audition now (:
this is that video that i owe you guys.
TANLILIAN ! (:

took some pictures on wednesday
after school, while watching ROMEO&JULIET <3
heh, i wasnt actually paying much attention la.
cze .. im not in a good mood that day.
i was just there, lying on the table.
listening to guiji (:
but atleast, say a goodbye.
& i'll leave a smile (:

AVA room (:

took this out of boredom again :D
jiaqi's & mine :D
we were sitting on the same line la.
chicken mans, her leg is like so long la.
wth D:

ohmytian.
LOL, my eyes were like so swollen la.
all thanks to him

this one too =l

lilian skiped art on thursday (again)
& fabian guessed it right.
she came during PE
& wenhui very cute cans! (:
yeps, she & her red nose :DDDD
cute cute cute ! :D

DURING ENGLISH :D

((:
LILIAN & CLARENCE la
:DDD snatching over some stupid newspaper
lame ~

LILIAN'S & YUENIAN'S
& again,
snatching over some stupid newspaper.
they never grow up la ~

DURING MT (:
photography session :D

RU BEN .

PRESIDENT ! (:

aaaayie, he blocked me.
i was wanting to take this ...

:DD
alicia,manpang&aaron
o.O

accompanied lilian to BMS (:
yeahs, how nice right ? :DD
ahahs. & lilian was eversodumb ..
leak out some things, that's suppose to be a secret
:DDD
im smart im smart im smart ! (:
ended bms at 3
went to pasirrispark to find clarence&yuenian.
they were there .. catching crabs >< & i've just read stephanie's blog.
they went there too, ytd LOL -.-
hell , it was so darn scary la.
so many holes there & crabs were everywhere !
they were having fun, killing them.
tsktsk.
yuenian played golf
while clarence ... idontknow what he doing la.

clarence , yuenian :D

nice ? :D

& i pass'd Thursday.
Boy, i guess ..
this is truelove
i'll trust your everything from today onwards.
cze you've proven to me (:
iiex ll0rrve y0ohx :D

aaaaaayie ~! miss'd it D:
AGAIN !

i caught her ! (:

a little of gelin , daryl , yue nian & ru ben :D

:DDD
I LOVE THIS CANS ! (:

ever so cute (:

& tada
i won the war (:
victory to JoelynTanYiYing ! (:

gong gong gong ! :D

during homeroom,
mrlee calling those people who owe him BMS.
stepahnie,lilian,alicia,yuenian,clarence,fahan.
& like wth.
im alone D:
gelin,atiqah,daryl,shaowei,ru ben were playing true or dare.
so i joined in .
ahahs :D okay la.
i watched the fun :D

TIARA (:

daryl hugging tiara :DDDDDD

didnt went to hsc in the end D:
cleo's having her exams.
D: sadded cans.
so i went out with ahma ! :D

trained down to tampines with angxiuwei
aaaaayie, i forgot to take photo with her again D:
my mummy sms'd me ..
ordered me to reach home at 3
saying that she had some important stuffs to tell me.
okay, sua .
i reached home at 245
hell, fabian .. badmouth'd me.
like wth can.
he told my mum that i've been seeing one secfour guy
& told my mum that my friends have bad conduct& attitude
like wtf.
he's totally a bastard.
my friends doesnt have any bad conduct nor attitude.
fuck you la. they are always there for me cans.
making me go so crazy.
you dont know them, so dont ever judge them cans.
that secfour guy, is none other than siew cheewai
& she claims that i lied to her on thursday.
as i've no bms.
like .. wth again.
fabian say i dont have any bms.
i got luhs.
during assembly ,
me&lilian were "talking"
hell, he wasnt there.
& jiaowei ?
fuck him big.
dont believe me nevermind.
go ask the whole school see what they say la -.-
my mummy called cheewai up =l
my mum askd him if he's my bf anot.
like hell no -.-
she doesnt want to believe me.
suala, let her call.
& heng, he didnt say that i stead with richard la.
CHEEWAI, XIEXIE (:

im alr moodless.
6.45 , he ring (:
& im high again :DDD
this time, we talked alot :DD
more than before (:

love me like a romeo
care for me like im fragile
dote me like im your one&only

2006-09-19T04:33:00.000-07:00

to clear this misunderstanding.
he's just my ganlaogong.
& nth else. =l
i know him longer than i know guiji.
& if i were to write to guiji,
the font size would be tiny & not normal size la ~
blahs blarhs bllahhsxz

reached school early today (:
yuanyun says she doesnt want to see me ?
wth T.T
& hell was sway enough.
caught by seetoh.
i was just only helping my friend with her plaster right ?
he wants us to admit that we were talking.
like wth.
we didnt luhs.
under the ofference slip i wrote.
helping my friend cze she injured her leg
why you do that :
cze she needed help.
did you do wrong ? :
no
what you did wrong :
helping my friend. friend should help each other
what will you do next time :
do not help my friend.

the rest of the lessons were blahs.
dont wish to go on further alr.
took some pitures during chinese lessons :D
dont be surprised to see your pictures here wor .
ahhash :D

chiayuenian
ahahhas :D
i took this out of boredom.

blahs, second one.
& then i spotted prettygelin.
ahaahs :D
she's ziling-ing ! (:
so ~~~
i took more ! :D

:D & the best part of all.
she didnt notice it !
ahahhas :D

& there.
my two little crappers (:

they were talking , as usual , talking back to teacher yuan :D

my ~~soon-to-be wife~~ , alicia sng :D
she also dont know that i took this picture of her.
how stupid ~ :D

step yi gei.
clarence tang.
but thanks for that drink (:

my ever so nice darylaw didi (:
aint he cute ? ahahs :D

(: he treated me sticko today .
thankyou :DDD

had SBL .
yeahs, i was scaredded luhs =X
waited for alicia & lilian after school.
as they were doing their CME.
xiuwei&stephanie were no where to be found
& I WANT TAKE PICTURE WITH AHMA ~
may i ? :DD

PIECES OF MEMEMEME (:

my all time favourite pose
the twist -.- :D

retarded shit

BB TAN ! :DDD

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<3>

2006-09-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

The mistake of a moment becomes the regret of a lifetime.

this was taken ...
hmms. 5 days ago ?
xP i forgot to upload la ~

alicia's camera shy ~ ahahas (:

o.O clarence's shy too :DD
ahahs

aaaaaaaaaaayie, i almost had it la ~
tsktsk. siam too fast

the ever so nice guy :DD
CHIAYUENIAN (:

president reben :DD

hell, fucking disgusting cans.
stephanie's hokkien mee
she picked all those tougays out.
its erxin de can.
tsktsk

she's that murder.
see the way she killed that prawn -.-
tsktsk :DD

2006-09-17T02:08:00.000-07:00

currently watching the magicians of love <333
fuck, its hyper nice cans.
rlly, i sumpa (:
watched till disc 4
6 more discs to go (:
yeps yeps :D
wangshaowei -Richie
mingdao - ARTZ (:
somegirl in sweety ( i've forgotten her name la -.- ) - Bei Rou Yi
its quite like wangzibianqinwa la.
but nicer :D
Richie&Artz both like Bei Rou Yi.
she thought that she likes Richie but nahs,
she actually likes Artz.
yeahs, quite confusing la.
but hyper nice luhs (:
people, trust my taste.
very very nice.
who want to borrow can can (:
after i watched finish :D

started watching ytd since im at home >:l
hell, i jio jabez.
he say he busy, sua.
next was rebecca.
she say she outside, orh.
third was dexter.
hell he gave me stupid excuses.
say he havent bathe & dont want smelly smelly come meet me.
-.- like wth.
dont want meet me say la.
stupid dumb ass x3

& blast that jackie far far away.
kept on calling me ytd >:l
asking where am i -.-
ofcourse im at home.
watching that ever so nice show :D
interupting me, rahs !
ahahs :D

wont be online often again.
first, i need to mug D:
second, im busy watching the magicians of love (:

30th is coming (:
im looking forward to this special date of mine, & jasmine <3>
yeps (:
the day, where we became dearydarlings :D
the day, where i loved her so darn much :D
blah blah blah :DDDD
i will go nomatter what, cze i promised to.
& i never break my promises (:

48 hours of torture D:
48hours of missing D:
ahhh, laotianye ,
wei shen me yao na mo zhe mo wo la !

2006-09-15T20:57:00.000-07:00

was uploading pictures from my phone.
& guess what.
i still got that video of tanlilian ~
ahahs :D

2006-09-15T19:14:00.000-07:00

doing homeecons & CME project now D:
siandded la.
waiting for my aunt to be back from the market.
with my roti-prata yummy!

i dont know if am i going out later nots =l
jasmine says that she's going there for a while nia
there's no point for me to go if she's not going right ?
cze it's yuanping's bdae today.
& hell, we dont know each other.
so what for i go ? ><
haiyah, i dont know D:

if not going, then i should be jioing jabez out ba (:
heh, i hope he's not as sad as ytd.
=/////////////

& HELL.
I MISS HIM 很多LA ! ><

2006-09-15T06:33:00.001-07:00

mummy's back D:
i dont know whether should i go yay, or boo.
tsk, i didnt have nags for the past week.
totally wee wee :D
but i miss'd her like fuck.
she's my mother what ><
but now she's back.
i need to reach home before 6
like wth ?

walked to school with yuanyun today.
saw lilian on the way .
& like hell, she was walking so darn bloody fast la.
stupid dumbdumb.
walk so fast got prize mehs ? ><

maths was fucking hell bored la.
D:
& again, im the first to hand in my composition la (:
*claps (:
hell, stpehaniedumbass splashed water on me la hor.
fuck, my fringe is like so wet luhs.
i hate it when my fringe is wet.
science's complicating.
i dont understand anything><
too many fomulas la.
i didnt know lilian was that smart cans.
she actually teach me leis.
wow . :D

hell, & i didnt see him today.
& im not gna see him for the next two days.
48hours. D:
i can die la ><

MT was blahs.
was suppose to meet cleo de.
but it was pouring heavily.
so nahs, i dont want my fringe to get wet la.
>< . it cannot be wet okay.
next was home room.
fuck, fabianlim is getting more&more unreasonable la
& hell, i dont know wth gotten into him ><
he first talked about plants.
then, free gifts.
& next us, girls being a cheap.
wth la.

went to ws after school.
blahs, stephanie wants her mcd ><
crapped (:
soon, i went off to new gernation to get my nose studs.
saw four eastspring sec boys.
lower sec's. they were wearing short pants ma ><
anyway, two of them just pierce their lips.
& the uncle there were helping them to put in.
the first guy was like .
: " ouch ouch, pain pain pain "
his reaction very funny.
so i kinda stopped there la.
wanting to see whats the next guy reaction :D
the next guy's reactions like
: " ah ah ah ah "
super funny la.
i almost laughed out loud cans.
xP

3.10 went back to school.
& hell, wilsontan angry with me luhs D:
i dont know la ):

if what they say its true,
im rlly very happy (:
rlly i am <3
thankyou (:

ERMO#
wo yi man man de yi wang ni le.
bu yao dan xin, wo bu hui zai fan ni le.
wo hui li ni de shi jie yau yuan de.
zhu ni xinfu :D

a call makes a different.
i miss your voice, i miss your laughter, i miss your smile.

TO JABEZ KOH KORKOR.
wth/ did you end ?
i thought you loved her.
from all your previous relationships.
i can see, that you rly love her.
but why, did you make that choice ?
fuck, its none of my business.
but i want you to be happy know ?
cze you're always making me laugh & smile when im down.
you're always there for me when i need someone.
rlly, you're the best (:
so i want you to have the bestest thing in this world.
but whatever choice you make.
i'll still support you. (:
just dont regret,
cze regreting is the last thing you want to have,
fucking hell does it feel so bad.

2006-09-14T02:25:00.000-07:00

today shall be short (:
gelinpretty,tiara,reben,afiqah & stephanie didnt come school today.
yeahs, alot of people hor.
yeps, i know.

lessons were boring la ~
& hell do i feel bad today D:
he waited for me.
but i didnt walked with him ?
shoot me off cans.
D:
hell, i feel rlly bad.
its the second time alr D:

gosh, its Thursday .
ohgod, let this pass quickly.
please. D:

2006-09-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

hell, today's boring la~
probably because ... blahs blarhs bllahsxz :D
MsChung didnt come today (:
yeps, celebrations ((:
had dance, hell was like fuck !
rebecca was in de okay.
blahs, whatever.
she can dance.
rlly, she can

dance ended at 4.15
& i watched the netball girls play.
wow, the coach's rlly very ..
chiong :D
heng i didnt choose netball as my cca (:
i reached home at 6
was bored.
i went to 230 :D
hoping that cyn :D was there. =/
nahs, he wasnt there
so i bought magimee for dinner ((:
though my ahma cooked -.-
hell, i havent do science homwork.
jialut ~ D:

FAKESMILES*
wo zui zai hang.
youleftme, justlikethat
im outa your life.
&it seems that i dont worth abit in your eyes.
you taught me how to love,
you taught me how to care.
you shown me whats love,
you shown me whats care.
heh,whatever my choice is.
the outcome will still be the same.
maybe im just missing the times when we were together.
fullstop, nomore.

this post is yesterday one's.
i forgot to post -.-
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ni lu lue le wo
jiu shi deng yu ni yi wang le wo
liao jie ma ?, zhi dao ma?

wozhende,zhende
hen xihuan ni.
bu yao wai yi wo dui ni de gaun jue

school reopens D:
siandded la cans.
& lilian actually went to school today.
totally a wow wow :D

Ms Low no longer teaches us alr D:
she's on maternity leave la ~
tsk, i wanted to visit her de.
but she doesn't want to give me her number !
stupid dumb dumb cans
& hell, i dont like the new teacher la
MISS YONG , yeahs, wth ? another tweetybird -.-
she's hell of a bitch la ~
her voice is like super act cute plus irritating
she&aaron makes a great couple yeahs ? :D
bitch bitch bitch.
& she's dumb enough to believe that im adeline -.-
how stupid right ?
(#&_#!_(^ &
wo zou kan you kan
na li xiang adeline -.-

& then all were blahs.
i cant rmb la.
went to new generation (:
yuenian,clarence&calvin went to pierce their ear.
its like super funny la ~
the uncle there : okay, so you all want to pierce ear right ?
yuenian&clarence : yarhs
calvin : /nods
the uncle : okay, who ever are ready you sit there first
yuenian&clarence : clavin, you go first leis. go
calvin : /shakes
the uncle : okay, who first ?
yuenian&clarence : *points to calvin.
LOL ! mean right !
calvin : uncle .. will pain ma ?
( wow ! the first time he talked ! lilian&stephanie got excited -.- )
uncle : nahs . not pain de
calvin : ohokay =l

& after few seconds after uncle pierce'd in
calvin's reaction is like ..
woowww , damn pain.
where got pain sia ?
he was running up&down
:DD

next, was clarence
okay, he was abit scared la
but not as scared as calvin :D
last, yuenian
he was the man-est , LOL
yeahs, he was "cool" .
hahahs :DD

went to elias & then to downtown
yeahs.
& me and stephanie were kind enough to help the boys to take out their earrings
they scared later mummy see. o.O :D
& hell, we had a hard time putting in the sticks cans !
tsktsk D:
but soon, stephanie managed to put in the stick in yuenian's ear
we still cant put in clarence's one
saw zisiong,kenrick&jingshen
so asked them for help la (:
kenrick said that clarence's earhole isnt straight
so he repierce'd for clarence
just using a lighter& a needle
yeahs, self-pierce
the needle is like ..
so long la.

at 5.15
we went home.
took 17
so me&yuenian decided to go 230 luhs (:

CHIAYUENIAN IS HELL OF A NICE GUY !
HE'S FROM HEAVEN LA ~
-.-
he's rlly very nice cans
i told him my things
& he talked some sense into me?
yeps, he rock la
& he walked me home
okay, not excatly walk me home
cze his house is just next to mine -.-
he stay'd at 233 & i stayed at 232 ma
:DD
anyway, thanks yuenian (:
i'll think hard this time (:

I miss your presence much
i didnt see you much today
say Im shy , whatever
I would not be seeing you tmrw
& hell, am i gna miss you D:
how i wished i can skipped tuesday & go on to wednesday
imissyou

2006-09-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

breaking free, together , when there were me&you by high school musical
I knew I love you . truely,madly,deeply by savage garden
catch the waves, just the girl by click5
Jing tian jia gei wo by JolinTsai & DavidTao
Zhi dui ni shuo by LinJunJie
Invisible, Measure Of a Man, The way by clay akien
Everytime we touch , ( slow & techno )
Tokoyo Dirft
so sick , by i-dont-know-who
GUIJI, Qing Tian , AnJing by Jaychou
Aimei, Li Xiang Qin Ren, Dan yen pi by Rainie;yangChenLing
hen xiang shuo , ni na me ai ta by Lee Shen Jie
kou jin yi dian dian, say that you love me , ting jian - It Started With a Kiss
chou nan ren by wang yi da

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cousins were all here alr D:
siandded la ~
& hell, i cant find a thing about LimChinSiong
fuck la ~
alicia's gna scold me alr
but i found some pictures luhs.

going to the beach later, i think.
yeahs, its been long since i've been there alr (:
i miss'd there luhs.
i still want a trip to sentosa la !
)*@+*@#&@&#^#
people, jio me there yeahs ? (:

heh.
just now, dexter ring me.
he sounded so sad la ~ D:
his stead two timed him ?
yeahs, thinkso .
DEXTERLIMZIHAO !
SMILE ! (((:
your super nice & bikini meimei is always here for you de la ~
dont ask why he called me bikini meimei

& too,
i read darling's blog.
i want to make her happy sia.
i felt so no good seeing her like that.

ahhhD:
KORKOR&DARLING
BOTH SO SADDED SIA !
THEY SADDED I ALSO SADDED CANS D:
ohhell, my english sucks

Boy, you havent called since Thursday.
I miss you, i rlly do

01) Single, taken or crushing?
Taken :D

02) Are you happy with your life now?
so-so

03) When you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?
i-dont-know

04) Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yes.
Want Me to name ?

05) Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
i-dont-know

06) Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
If i rlly love him, Yes

07) Have you talk bout marriage with another before?
-.-

08) Do you wan children?
yes yes yes :D

09) How many?
2 :D
elderly brother & little sister :D

10) Would you consider adoption?
i-dont-know

11) If someone like you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings? Tell him

12) Do you enjoy getting into relationship?
Yes / No
ah, i dont know llarhhszx

13) Be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?
X=
confidential :D

14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes (:

15) Are you romantic?
nopes. but my parents are (hyper)

16) Do you believe you can change someone?
Nahs. i dont have that ability

17) If you could married somewhere, where would it be?
KOREA !!

21) Have you ever broken a heart?
y..e..a..h..s...
& hell do i feel bad

22) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you deeply in love with,
what would you do?
I hate this kind of circumstances but I would back off . I don't know why but I always do this
( this is lilian's answer )
why would you want to back off & not fight back ?
so what if you know that you'll lose in the end, at least, you tried.
yeahs, i know. she's your bestfriend ma.
& friends are muchmuchmuch more important than bf :D
talked things out with your bestfriend ?
& have a fair compeition (:
ahahs :D

I will kill my friend ( my cousin's one ) :D
girl, killing is a crime la , hahas

23) Are you missing someone now?
Hell yes

Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survery in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below. Tag them in their blog to let them know.
- JASMINEENG (:
- TanSihui
- AngXiuwei
- RebeccaLim
- Just anyone la :D

2006-09-09T07:46:00.000-07:00

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this for english songs
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this for chinese de (: :D

was watching some football match
while waiting for my com to load.
& i must say, im impress'd by the way the footballers control'd the ball.
rlly luhs.
i cant even control it =l
i'll only trip & roll over with the ball.
tsk, i suck at soccer la .
:D

morning was blahs.
afternoon came.
decided to meet cleo (:
i waited for her outside HSC.
was fucking hot la ~
so i went in.
& saw that bitch & bastard.
oh how sway
anyway, im not letting them spolit my mood (:
had a little nice chat with uncle ong there.
& to my fucking surprised.
he was angesong's dad !
yes ! HER DAD !
im like .. wow.
its indeed a small world :D
okay, im gna suan her alr :DD
hahas

i waited for cleo from 12.50 to 2.30
fuck la cans.
so i went to downtown instead
& played para (:
WE TWO ARE ONE && KISS,KISS,KISS
bloody hell am i in love with these two songs (:
hyper dyper nice yeahs ?

cleo ring.
& we met at BK
had her lunch & she went off D:
im left alone again
but heng, i saw chirstina (:
yeps.
& too, gordon (:
he's a rlly pig luhs.
he woke up at 2.30 & says he's tired ?
ohplease, he's lou ya la
hahahs :D
nowadays, i hardly see evan with him alr.
heh. sadded .
they two make me laugh like hell D:
anyway, he says that he would quit smoking.
but did he ?
nono. hell no, he didnt.
when i saw him, he's still smoking
stupid dumbdumb. hope you die faster la.
ahahs :D
he went off soon after he saw his friends.

i ring my aunt.
asking her to pick me up.
then, a guy pick'd up.
& bloody hell i was shocked la !
me: hello.
him: hello ( rudely )
me: ah.. gugu leis ?
him: (&_(@#^@&* ( i dont know what he talking la )
me: har ?
him: TA ZAI CHONG LIANG ( shouting , fucking rude )
me: orh, byebye ( with a little rush )
hell was i shocked.
i thought who la.
its my uncle.
he was hell, shouting on the phone cans.
very very very very rude.
LOL. & mervyn was scared of him
ahahs, that time. when he came to my house.
LOL LOL LOL LOL !
ahhs. hahahs -.-

yeps, waited for my uncle
he came & fetch me to jurong.
& blah blah blah.
cousins came & zoom.
off we went to compass point.
& i also dont know for what stupid reasons.
i wanted to go jurong point de luhs.
heh. im not the driver D:

/sings
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

we zoom to the arcade luhs (:
played some games.
yeahs, childhood games :D
hell, i miss'd the times luhs.
ahahs.
anyway, we raced.
i was so close.
so sososo close.
to wining okay !
i came in 2nd D:
blast tha wei hou far far ! D:
stupid dumbdumb.
me& my aunt call him MR TALL (:
ahahs.
he's 187 in height okay.
so yeahs, he deserves that name :D

& HELL !
I LOSE TO A XIAOMEIMEI IN A WHATEVER GAME LA !
4VS3
wlous ! super malu luhs D:
sadded cans.

9.30 & we went home
sent weihou,wenwen& thier mom home at hougang i think.
anyway, weihou is giving directions to my uncle la.
sometimes, i rlly wonder'd whats in that brain of his.
so clever sia.
& wenwen wanted to haolian la.
uncle : how to go your house ah ?
weihou : ( thinking )
wenwen: ni kan dao wo de jia de blk jiu shi wo jia le.
all : laughs.
super LOL la.
tsktsk :D
cant blame her, she's only primary 4 :D

brendon said a total of
23 i-dont-want-ahma
26 i-dont-want-jiejie(me)
15 i-dont-want-meimei
& 65 i-dont-want-korkor
LOL (:
i counted them as i was super bored la ~

hell, this song make me remind of him.
he sang this wonderful song for me (:
though his singing is not that good.
but he sang it with feelings (:
i can feel it
when he said i-love-you.
yes, just those three words
my heart simply just melt.
how wonderful it is.
ohwell, its all the past now.
& i wont think about it anymore.
as stephanie said.
shan xin shi yin wei xiang tai duo
再唱多一次给我听，可以吗？
我好想再听哦~

I want to stand with you a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

2006-09-08T07:10:00.000-07:00

im back ~
miss me? miss me? miss me?
hahahs.

today is totally siandded la ! D:
& dexter's hyper nice can. (:
he bought me pao's in the morning
yeps yeps, shared with cousins ofcourse.
how i wished i could have all to myself.
nahs, i would be a fat pig by then :D
i did maths early in the morning
& dexter taught me (:
he's a great teacher i must say :DD

he went home afterthat.
his mother's sick.
AUNTY ! GET WELL SOON (:
you still own me a trip to sentosa hor !
dont you forget !
with your orange bikini on. hahahs :DD

from 12 to 3 plus.
i was totally siandded.
so i downloaded nice songs into my phone.
hell, it needed to be in wma form
& not mp3 D:
ohwell.

cleo called.
jio'd me out (:
yeahs, meet 3.445 at ws
we both, were late?
ahahas :D
my hair's in a mess today.
sadded.
saw yuanyun on the way to ws (:
& she said it was the first time she saw me wear jeans ?
-.-

met cleo at 4.15 in the end :D
chit chat & head'd to downtown
play'd para (:
yeahs. im loving it la !
lalalals (:
im going to downtown tmrw.
anyone ?!
msg me or ring me when you want to come okays ?
i wna play para ~~~ (:

met mummy at 6.45
had our hair done
& fuck la.
my hair's fucking straight
& i dont like !
fuck ! fuck ! fuck !
how am i suppose to go school on monday !
-.- chicken banana la !
wtf mans !
ahhhh ! >:l
okay, maybe i've gone insane
but ~ my hair's fucking ugly la !
plus, i cut my fringe , layer'd
siandded la !
i miss that fringe of mine D:
wlous !
i never wna go jeanyip & cut my hair ever again !
i think .. monsoon sounds good ?
yeahs, either red or monsoon la (:

http://filelodge.bolt.com/viewfile.php?fid=1385111
this song, gna be my wedding song.
hahahs.
if anyone gna sing this for me.
i'll love him or her for sure (:

& HO GELIN :D
A HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LA ~
i forgot to post here :D
stay pretty & happy & crazy & gong & nice forever :DD
ahahhas. just stay the way you are (:
cze i love you ! hahahs.

2006-09-07T08:00:00.000-07:00

http://cn.wu123.com/1225/www/take this if you're bored :D
ahahas. (:

went out with mum today (:
we had our breakfast at mcd
i have my orearomeo cheesecake & a ice chocolate.
while mummy&didi have big breakfast (:
at 11 , head'd to PINC
had my nails all polish'd nicely
hahahs :D
thanks jiejie (:
let see.
hmms, i bought a striaght cut jeans,greenhairband, t-shirt & a new phone today :D
my mum bought more stuffs than me cans.
(:
im not used to my phone now la.
heh, i will get used to it, somehow :D

& hell, do i miss jasmineeng !
she's not online as often D:
i miss her sweet sweet testimonials
& her post.
gees. i rlly miss her la !

gna do history soon D:
LIMCHINSIONG.
hell, i dont know what to research about him D:
siandded.
history's rly boring.

TO YOU
if you were to read.
a sorry doesnt clear every single thing that you said.
a sorry isnt that simple.
a sorry doesnt means, " its okay, lets be friends "
neverever its gna happen.
& im way hell, not gna forgive you.
i would rather to have you as my enemy.
than you to be my friend.
hate me as much as you want.
i dont care.
besides, im not even fit to be your friend, right ?
heh _l_
you badmouth'd me .
& i dont know what will you do next.
i dont believe that you'll change.
cze its you.
whatever it is.
how i wish'd i never know you.
just fuck off my sight
& thank goodness, im gna see you next year.

lilian show me a link just now.
& like fuck,
how am i suppose to sleep now ?!
ahhh ! D:

no, you dont like me.
you are just desperate for me.
you alr have your girl.
whom is ever so nice
& always there for you.
whenever you needed someone.
she's hell nice.
why cant you just appericate & love her more ?
& no, i didnt changed.
i didnt changed a tiny bit.
im still me.
joelyntanyiying, yes. me
& dont you ever dare to think of anything.
to harm my stead.
hell is what im gna give you.
you are always blaming me & giving me that bloody attitude.
not everyone can tahan it you know.
when i dont want to meet you,
you'll go " you like this one, sua la "
& then, you'll call & asked why.
the reason is simple.
i dont want to meet you,
cze i know, what will you do.
you guys are all the same.
you&vampire.
yes, you both.
nono, it should be
vampire is much much nicer than dawang.
he's a flirt, so ?
he loves a girl with all his heart.
dawang doesnt.
& again, how i wished i've never known you.

2006-09-05T19:48:00.000-07:00

oh hell.
im bored D:
thats why im here, blogging.
friendster's lagging.
there's no one to play with in o2jam
& havent download the patch for kongkongsea.
rahs >:l
there's one more option left.
maple. yucks.
nahs, i dont think i would playing it alr ?
cze i totally sucks at it.
but its like ..
my friend, bought everything. EVERYTHING for me alr.
& it wouldbe a waste just to leave it there right ?

i think cleo would be coming over ?
i dont know la zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

http://jiamin08.tripod.com/Music/tokyo_drift.mp3
i was viewing miki's friendster.
& i listen'd to her song.
this was the song, danced by addictions
at the girls' nation dance battle at funan.
& you guys should listen to it
very very nice (:

& i want a trip down to sentosa !
okay, i dont know why okay.
its like .. so long since i've been there alr !
confirm, i'll be going there after my EOY
yeps yeps yeps ! :D

http://www.filelodge.com/files/room37/1041039/Truly%20madly%20deeply.mp3
i'll be your love.
i'll be your life.
i'll be your fanstasy
If loving you was so wrong,
i would rather be that wrong than to be right.

---------------------------------------

2006-09-05T04:55:00.000-07:00

When you're not with me,
Im afriad of losing you.
When you're with me,
Im afriad to talk -.-

& blahs.
im back :DD
holidays isnt that great afterall :l
siandded cans ! D:

i went to dexter's house ytd :D
his cousin was there too ?
yeahs. :D
his name was mervyn.
yups, same spelling some more
anyway, dexter's still the best !
he & his craps never change (:
& he actually renovate his bedroom !
to my design !
im like so shock'd la !
so this is what his surprise is (:
rlly very touched can.

went home at a rather late time ?
but mummy dont mind !
cze dexter's here ! hhahahs :D
my mummy ask'd me to patch with dexter.
im like wth la !
stead rly aint for us luhs.
_______________________________

hahas went to school today.
for science remedial at 9
i stood outside the IT room.
& saw NA people coming out.
yeahs, he was there too ^^
wee wee wee ~~~
hahahs :D

& he .. waited for me ?
but i was waiting for stephanie.
so he left, to ws i felt so bad can.
he was waiting for me, alone.
he sat there, studying.
its rly, wow a miracle :D
& hell, alicia asked me to go sit beside him ?!
noway man.
im not gna do that !
cze im shy
but, i rly rly felt so bad cans.
wlous ! (&#_@^#*_&@
why am i like that de !! >:l
somethings, i rlly cant stand myself la.
he went off with his smile on (:
it made me feel a little better.
but still ~ i felt so ..

walk'd to ws.
& had mcd with stephanie (:
bearbear came & they both went to dontknowwhere

call'd cleo.
she was at downtown
& i rushed there :D
saw loads of people.
first, saw chirstina.
with jingyi :D
next, vanessa applepie
im like always seeing her la :D
third, was lincon ?
fourth, gelin,shuxian&tiara
they were watching some floorball match at the hall.
fifth, dexterdexterdexterdexterdexterdexterdexter :D

& i know what bag to buy for jasmineeng le !
hahahs, i've got loads of choices in my mind now.
but no worries. i've loads of time to think.
her bdae is way long ahead :DD
09/11 am i right ? xP

there's basamalam at centre there.
its been so long since i go basamalam alr la !
im going there this week !
:DD

bus'd down to 230 (:
met denise.
& wow, she slim'd down
she's a chiobu now can :D
hours past, & cheewai came.
he said hello to me with his big big big smile.
im like, wow, what happen to him sia ?
he say he & xiuwei very okay alr ?
reached home at 6.30

he ring me, at 6.45 (:
he says he's piercing his lips ?
& want to have a tattoo ?
-.- hell, i dont know la hor.
& when he said he want to have a tattoo.
i har very loud.
& he's like .. scareded . LOL
i think he's shocked la. hahahas :D

& TO NASI. whatever shit is that name
stop ka my friend's jiaowei can.
fuck you big la.
you dont even know her.
& called her a bitch ?
badmouth'd her in front of your oh-so-great friends.
please la.
i admit, she's not that prefect.
but neither is you.
& i bet you're even worst.
dont ever act friendly in front of us.
its disgusting & making me wanna puke.
i only scolded you afew words.
& dont dare to pick up my calls alr ?
dare to scold but dont dare to admit ?
humji kia la hor.
if you want to say, atleast.
say in her face. " i hate you "
& the most, she'll only replied " fuck you"
& there, friends no more.
peace for you ?
i hate those people, scolding & badmouthing my friends.
espically, MY THAT SISTER, CLEOGOHXUYIN
she's so that nice okay.
if you dont appericate her.
fine, just leave her alone.
she dont need this kind of friend.

TO YINYI.
if you think , that just scolding some bad words ,
tucking out your shirts during school time &
not doing your homeworks make you an ahlian ?
ohhell, grow up please.
you think a real ahlian is like that ?
go back to primaryschool la
& please, stop acting ever-so-kind in front of cleo .
& get rid of that acting-innocent face of yours.
its very .. i-wna-puke
im not saying im better than you
& cleo should siam far far from you.
its like .. you always pangseh her.
& showing that attitude of yours.
it rlly sucks la.
you even dont wna talk to her
because she talked to anges, that guy you admire?
its rlly LOL can anot.
getting so jealous easily ?
well, thats too bad for you.
people appericate her more than you.
people like her more than you.
she cried so many times because of you
because of your attitude.
it hurt to see cleo in this state can.
i've been friends with her for like 10years alr ?
yeps & dont ever again. badmouth to your oh-so-great azam.
cze, he too, sucks
& you said.
you're not afraid of ahlians but instead, you're afraid of ahbengs ?
& you also said.
ahlians is not as scary as ahbengs ?
you're so so wrong girl.
very very wrong.
you dont know, how fierece&scary can an ahlian gets when she's angry.
& only ahlians will hit girls.
& not ahbengs.
get this straight in your head.
i hate you.
thats all.
& i dont care if you're reading this anot.
i thouhgt you're nice.
how fucking wrong am i ?
fuckyou, yousuckbig
dont ever hurt cleo again.
im biased, i side her whatever.
what can you do?
she's always there for me.
& i bet you dont know that feeling.
cze you're hell of a bitch.
& too, serve you right.
for not being invited to jackson's bdae party.
neyekneyekpoopoo.
sadded case for you , tanyinyi :D

2006-09-03T19:53:00.001-07:00

i was just looking through the pictures & look what i've found !
LOL.
all were so long ago :D

yeps !
MR&MRS WONG (:
hahahs.
she's pretty yeahs?

this is super LOL
hahahas.
let see.
how many centuries ago is this alr ?
hahahahs.
i was laughing like hell when i saw this.
i thought i've delete'd it alr.
but nah. its stiu here :D
hahahs

:DDD
blah blah blah.
ask me if you want to know who :D

by alexBBkor (:
those pictures were all so long ago alr.
i think .. its secone that time ?
yarhs, should be :DD
I JUST LOVE ALEXBBKORKOR ! ((((:

oh this is super hyper long alr .
hahahs, chyna babe& me :D
actually was suppose to meet jasmineeng de.
but she cant go last min =l
so i went out with chyna luhs :D
hahahs :D

yeahs, i love her la.
she's a great great great friend (:

SHUWEN (:
hahahs :D
anit she just so so so cute (:
& hell, do i look retarded in this picture o.O
hahahs

that day out (?)
regina,elle,melvyn,jasminethian&mememe :D

okay okay okay.
this is like taken .. last year ?
yeahs, my that fringe :D
with my cousins&aunt too :DDD

koreatrip
hahas, i look'd retarded yeahs ? :D
anyway, I MISS MURPHY LA !
ohmy ~ hahahahs

hell, dont tell me i didnt take picture with jasminethian !
ohgosh.
ahhhs .
hhahas :D

going to cleo house later.
at home is rly siandded.
i've finished all my homeworks claps
& im left with that history project =l
i dont know what alicia want to do la hor .

im currently listening to bu ke si yi
http://mp3.jnnc.com/music114/china/jinsha/bukesiyi/02.mp3
its super nice la can?
ai hen bu ke si yi.
wo jiu shi ai ni <3

& all the best <3
jiayou ((:
smaucks x3

When I run away from you
follow me

When I call you crazy
I'm crazy about you

When I ignore you
I want your attention

When I pull away
Grab me by my waist & tell me you'll never let go

When I scream at you
Tell me, You love me

When you see me walking
Sneak up from behind,& hug me

When I say 'I don't care'!
I care like fuck

When I am scared
Hold me by my hand & say i'll be here for you

When I face something that matters
Kiss me & tell me everything would be fine

2006-09-03T19:53:00.000-07:00

2006-09-03T08:18:00.000-07:00

im piss'd by belvin la can.
dont ask why. =l

today was totally siandded.
& hell, even my tuition teacher says that i cant even pronouce my words properly.
how untrue.
stupid dumb dumb
)^@*#)&^@)*^#*&@

anyway, my cousins came today.
yeahs, noise pollution -.-
i've seriously no mood la.
fuck, i dont know whats going through that mind of mine.

& i must say.
that little cousin of mine.
is rlly a pro can.
okay , i meant , every cousin of mine.
he's only pri2 & his maple is lvl 59 ?
& the pro-est among all.
she's only pri4 & her maple is lvl 70 !
_*@#&amp;_(*@&#_*@&#@
wth mans ! she's a priest :D
& he's a .. i dont know what -.-

night came.
we celebrated my cousin's bdae.
happy bdae pretty <3>
grow big :D
&amp; & & & ! most surprising of all.
dexter came :D
yeahs. he, his two little sisters & his mum :D
yeps. i'll upload the photos later
if i rmb la :D

& jasmineeng.
i promise to buy a wonderful bag you ever seen :D
I PROMISE (:

& i did this bloody oh-so-stupid quiz
requested from jasmineeng :D
http://www.dr-joe.net/quiz.html

First pick a number between 2 and 9 ....
- 7 , its just a random answer
& it replied 7 is the number of time you should be kicked on your ass becauseyou thought that stupid shit like this actually works,you are probably one of those people that forwards those stupid chain letters to the entire addressbook

2. Now type the first name of a person you feel attracted to...
- renfred yeahs, its always him :D
& it replied he probably dont give a damn about you ,cos you're wasting your time on this lame shit like this wth wth wth wth , so untrue. he loves me ! ><

3. Type the first color you think of...
- red
the fact that you chose pink doesnt damn a thing .after all ,it's just a colour

4. What was the name of your first pet?...
- BB
& it replied. BB IS DEAD. WTF LA HOR !

5. Now please put down the names of two colleagues or friends ...
- jasmineenghuimin & richardzhangzhe
they are probably ashamed that they know you personally

6. Finally, make a wish...
- javier would die he's a meanie
oh yeahs & that stupid ass wish of yours ?
it would never come true ! HAHA !
_l_

imlovingyoumore&more each&every single day =l
i cant control these feelings.
but, im afraid you might just hurt me again.
its not that i dont trust you.
i trust you , i do.
爱我多一些就够了
i dont wna lose you again.

2006-09-02T21:43:00.000-07:00

people, forget about the previous post la.
maybe im just too anxious alr.
maybe im used to him, being with me
maybe i cant let go of the past.
just let it be it la hor.
i dont know whats gotten into me.
just pretend you guys didnt see anything.
-.-

ytd was hyper bored can.
nobody, nobody jio me out la.
okay, its alr 4.30
still no one T.T
jabez msn'd me :D
JIOING ME OUT (:
i wanted to go downtown de la.
but he want to go cityhall. wth :D
so it was cancel'd in the end. =l

my phone rang.
stephaniekoh <3
yay ! she jio'd me out (:
i thought she never would.
the first time okay :D
i rushed there (:
yeps. 15 mins & i was there alr :D
went in the arcade to play :D
saw gordon too (: <3

stephanie got hungry & went to bungerking to have her dinner :D
frenchfries& chickencheesestick . LOL
we were playing la :D
like what weiji said :DD
hahahahahah.
too funny mans
& & & & ! she told me smth (?)
yeps(:
she went out with bearbear
tsktsk. & took photos !
yes, i must admit.
her photography skills sucks la
haha. wna know why ?
see the photos & you'll know :D

7.30 koh went off to ws D:
& i went in the chalet (:
belvin call'd.
jio me to 230 :D
i asked stephanie if she want to come along.
i just have to say " weiji's there too "
& immediatley she replied yes (:
haha . tsktsk :D
its alr 8.30
i beg my aunt like hell can
& she let me off (:

met them at 9
& they walked all the way to TOWNPARK !
im like wth la.
they asked me to go to 230
& then back to downtown.
wth man ! _l_
& belvin totally sucks.
he's teasing me all the way.
tsk ! )!*#_@&#_(*&@

& im nice enough to wait with stephanie okay (:
yeahs. (:
while walkin to the bus stop.
i saw these group of people, standing there.
a bunch of gangsters to be exact :D
then ~ someone shouted
a? you joelyn ?
i stared & stared.
oh, it was lincon LOL
he asked if i stead with *
& i nodded :D
lincon's friends were like.
huh ? whose joelyn ?
& he started to sing kan wo 72 bian. -.-

& hell,
my aunt(s) found out about my piercing. =l
fuck la, but they didnt kp :D
just hope that they wont tell my mum =l
& they wants me to close it.
nahs, hell no am i gna let it close :D

2006-09-02T00:55:00.000-07:00

& i know this, doesnt even concern me.
but hell, why am i so wanting to know ?
she's a babe, yeahs i know.
& probably the only reason for you to fell in love with her
i dont know why, i made that decision.
the love you gave me, its wonderful i must say.
heh, but i cant bring myself to it
you're bad bad bad.
yeps, thats what they say.
but i dont feel it in this way.
you're a nice person <3
ua-ynyvrem'uoyhtiwevol*nillitsmi
its in some alien words. :D

& lilian told me something.
which made me laugh'd like hell
i find it funny (:
rly, it is .
hahah :D

fortyfive
aimei
greenjacket
Always like'g Eu X=
its all about himhimhimhim :D
hahaahs.
its the past now, & im loving it (:
他让我明白，原来喜欢是可以那么简单的
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he's the one, im gna rmb (:
the one whom made me cried.
the one whom always making me go so crazy.
the only one, whom made my heart beated so darn bloody fast :D
THE PASTTHE PASTTHE PAST :D<3

2006-09-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

i've forgotten what happen on teacher's day la hor.
i only know that wendy's cute :D
she's like .. only till my chin ?!
yes ! hyper cute de lor (:

& gabriel is hell, nice (:
he .. cheer'd me up & made me feel so loved
:D thanks dude. you are much appericated
:D im touched by everysingle word you said to me (:
thankyou friend.
you're the best

went to sengkang for my appointment.
LOL & the denist is like ..
wow, another one ?
yeahs , cze first.
i brought stephanie there.
next was rebecca.
& then, lilian
now its cleo :D
i wonder'd whose next
hahaha & yay !
10 more months to go till my braces is off my teeth :D
yeahs, im waiting for this day to come (:
& sorry stephanie & gelin.
will be giving you all a belated bdae presents.
im currently broke.
so sorry hor :D

tampines was boring
so cleo decided to come over my house :D
i was talking to her about not seeing joel.
then, there's this group of guys.
walking towards us.
i stared & stared & stared. & one of them, looked so darn familiar.
its JOEL NEO ZI YANG !
im like, wow =D
he's one yandao :D

reached home at 4.30
surprised ? haha :DD
anyway, we got bored at home =l
went to 230 :DD yes !
yuenian was there (:
kelmond,adam were there too :D

went to the minimart to get some drinks.
& while i was walking back.
mervyn was there
bloody hell, i was shocked la.
saw yuenian's ezlink
hell, looked so funny la :DDDDDDD
i kept on disiaoing him by calling his name la
haha,its fun okay
& the best part is.
he never gets pekchek o.O
they played against eachother.
CORALSEC VS PASIRRISCREST.
& i never get to know who wins cze i was singing breakingfree :D

then ~ cheewai came :D
cheewai was shocked.
he didnt know mervyn played that well luhs.
okay, is he lousy la :DD

if what they said its true.
im rlly disappointed & heartbroken.
if you want to patch with me,
because you're gulity
i rather .. to let you off.
though how much i wanted you to be with me
cze its no point carrying on like this.
just dont deny.
say your whatever & everything out.
i wont blame you cze i loved you so

31AUG2006
LOVE MAKES LITTLE THING GROWS

2006-08-31T01:23:00.000-07:00

today's not a good day okay D:
alicia,lilian&stephanie didnt come okay !
im like .. so lonely can D:
T.T sadded sia.
anyway, gave yuenian his chocolates (:
yeahs. he loved it la (:

LOL
& there's a funny part.
dont know who, go buy mooncake to him luhs.
yuenian = yuebing
LOL ! :DD

we had our ACES day 'exercise' in the hall :D
cze it was raining.
phew ~
its not a exercise luhs.
we just sat on the floor & rotate our heads
& streched our hands.
like diao la ! OMG LUH~ :D
mdm samsiah asked us to put our hands together.
& we all started clapping :DD
ya what, she said to put our hands together ma ..
hahaha :D

went down for recess.
was all blahs.
was so darn boring without them three la.
wlous wlous wlous.
i hate loneliness can. =l
it rlly sucks big

so after that, had a class party .
they order'd pizza.
but i ate none =l
cze i was simply so bored la.
noone to talk to . D:
so i went to 2/1 find angxiuwei :D
talked, crapped, laughed :D

10.45 went back to class .
& gelin ... broke down ?
yeahs, i dont know what happen la.
but just cheer up (:
okays ?
cze you'll never knows who will fall in love with your smile :D
i alr used to that crappy & hyper gelin ho :DD
BE HAPPY (: <33

& thank you.
clarence tang, for talking to me :DDD -.-
sat behind him during assembly :D
i kept on hitting his ear la hor :D
its red like ~~~ hahaha
not my fault lor
is his ear too lousy ><

its alr 12.15 le.
they stiu havent release us.
we all were like wtf la hor.
chiong to pasirrisprimary with clarence&edward :D
& blahs
( to be continued :D )

2006-08-30T01:26:00.000-07:00

我又怎么样的对你说
我还爱你
这是我错误的决定

eeks.
my wounds. its horrible >:l
ohwell T.T
lilian didnt come to school today
heh, sian'd la :DD
丽莲，我会想你的leis :DD

after morning assembly
i chiong back to class.
not wanting to see mdm lina.
or should i say, escaping. =l
stephanie pei me luhs (:
we waited for the others to come to the class.
we were like ..
why so long de ah ?
i ran out, to see where are they.
then ruben say they go to the computer lab 4 ><
LOL luhs :D

CME was (&#_@^#@
super lame & boring la hor.
history was worst D:
had 0 interest in history alr.
it doesnt seems to interest me in any way

went down to the gerenal office. (:
tsk, i dont know how many times i went down there alr :D
too often :D
anyway, mr sam chase me out la.
im like wth ?)@*#_@&#@
im INJURED okay.
stupid dumb dumb
不要不要不要 :D
( only stephanie knows what i mean for the bu yao part :D )

got back the topical test
39.5/50
heh, lessons were so so boring *yawns.
will be having some remedial lessons on tuesday,
during the holidays.
why teachers wont give us a break !
we need to relax man ! )@&*_&#@

maths was like fuck. D:
anyway, labi's friends were outside.
they called for me.
they asked some questions that i find funny luhs

he: joelyn !
me: ( point to me )
he: ya you.
me: (what)
he: come here,
me: for what ?
he: i need to ask you something
me: just say la .
he: you know the labi thing ?
me: yarhs.
he: who win ?
( his friends were talking to him about derictellingxiuwei )
me: ah, dickson ?
he: who say dickson win one ?
me: weiji
he: ( walks away )

i think ,there's some parts missing
but i forgot what they asked me la
too noisy.
cant hear anything, clearly

waited for stephanie after school.
& talked to 气歪歪 :D
yeahs, he's a little down =l
ohwell, & ya !
richard's behaving like a kid can ><
he like .. jumping on his friends' back
& wanting them to piggy back him
LOL !
then cheewai jumped on that cute( to xiuwei) guy :D
LOL ! super funny la.
rlly luhs. haha

it rain'd cats&dogs.
tsktsk, me,stephanie,yanyee& xiuwei
walked under the rain luhs.
bobian =l
we were all translucent =X
my hair is like .. wow
rly very wet
went to the toliet & blow dry my hair :D
yanyee& xiuwei went to fareast luhs D:

met alicia just now.
to pass her the singaporeIdol ticket. T.T
my mum doesnt allow me to go la.
there goes my chance =l
onthe way home,
saw evan,joel,keffe& some malay guy ?
yeahs :D
ring stephanie.
telling her that xiuwei's things are settle.
& she told me that xiuwei's not with her.
im like funny.
just now xiuwei call'd.
she said she's still at fareast.

me: then where are you ?
her: simei
me: simei ?! do what ? with who
me: oh oh oh ~~~~~
her: nobody, im with nobody.
me: ya right, dont lie to me luhs
her: rlly what, nobody
me: oh rly ? not with _______ meh ?
her: har ?

she's just trying to cum gong .
tsktsk, think i dont know is it ? :DD

i understand whats going through your crappy brain ,darling.
cze i've been in this status before luhs.
it totally sucks.
a few days to the anniver.
heh, just forget.
i know its impossible la.
but its life.
its full of sorrows&pain.
no pain no gain
我对你的承诺，我不会让你流眼泪的
i'll do my very best, to try to make your day
MOOCHES <333333333

2006-08-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

cze its just a if :l
i shouldnt think that positive afterall.
cze it will only lead to disappointment in the end
its all gone & its never ever coming back.
i gave you up, boy
its the end.

hell, my leg still bloody hurts la hor D:
red like fuck can !? (*&#_@*@*#!)*
went to the gerneral office to apply some cream on it.
& xiuwei is kind enough to follow me (:
& fuck, was that sway.
saw mdm lina :l

she: so, i guess's you still havent change uh ?
me: (stares, start tucking in my shirt & pulling down my skirt)
she: oh you dont need to do that alr. im gna give you 3 bms next term ( walks away)

i mean, whatthefuck la hor
i took out my studs okay.
& thats isnt enough ? _l_
my skirt is longer than that day's
& i didnt fold my skirt can.
i just wear high up.
i dont know why, she kp so much.
the handbook didnt say that we cant wear our skirts high.
_l_ . she suck la.

scored 18/22 for lit (:
* claps ! (:
& surprising, lilian got 17.5/22
all of us were like.
wow, lilian ?! UNBELIEVEABLE :DD
okay kidding yeahs ? :D
had a lollipop as a reward (:
I LOVE MRS WONG / MS KOH<3
she's a nice teacher afterall.
i love her lessons
i never get bored can. :D

& im happy today okay (((((:
yes yes yes, super hyper happy ^^
i've never felt this way for a long time le.
its rly very very very nice (:
i liked it.
* smiling big :DDD
LALALALALALALALA
hahah (:

went down to the home econ room during SBL
to do our pratical luhs (:
yeahs, we baked.
& hell, it turn'd out to be horrible :D
but its edible la :D
unlike stpehanie's :D
anyway, JOSHUA'S LIL BROTHER IS REALLY CUTE !
:DDD he's a naughty one haha
he's cute cute cute ~
i think, im finding him tmrw :D

waited for the CG's people (:
its the same old thing every tuesday la :D
reached home at 7.30
& hell, i got a big nags from mummy & daddy. :l
they want fabian's number. chicken ~

TO JASMINEENGHUIMIN <3
its been 2 months le.
i know, you loved him so darn much.
but anyway, im here for you.
talk to me, when you need someone.
i cant promised to be a good adviser
but i swear, i will be a good listener.
we swear'd , to share out joys & sorrows together.
& i shall share your sorrows with you.
rlly, i will. if you ever are willing to (:
you have been always protecting & watching him from afar.
& i bet, you're tired & stress out.
i'll be your guardian angel.
i will , be always, watching you.
& will always be there, whenever you needed me.
shout for me, when you are bored or stressed or whatever shits :D
thats what darlings are for, right ? (:
i know , its impossible for you to smile & be happy right now.
just ... dont be too sad, & cheer up alittle.
cze, seeing you like this.
it rlly breaks my heart.
your heart may be broken in many bits of pieces.
i will pick them up, one by one, little by little .
by hand & mend it back for you.
even it takes a year or eternity.
im willing to.
for all those things you said & done for me.
its worth. /
if he doesnt know how to cherish you.
dont worry, cze you know.
you'll have me :DDD
YOUR SMILE IS MY EVERYTHING <3333333

you said hi & waved. (:
i like'd it muchie :D
my heart beated like no one's business.
我很喜欢这种feeling :D
我想我在不知不觉
开始喜欢你了
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2006-08-28T02:30:00.000-07:00

& fuck ?
)*@#)@&*#)@#
my post gone ?
i guess. im gna rewrite everything, again =l

SATURDAY.
went to cityhall with stephanie.
for the girls' nation dance battle.
& i liked addictions (:
rlly very nice luhs.
saw one pretty girl .
she lookd like chloe.
but cannot be 100% sure la.
cze im partially blind=/
sent stephanie for her ballet lessons (:
see , aint i kind :D

took bus3 to downtown .
saw gordon&evan :D
yeahs. them two :D
they take me as their toy la !
fuck them la hor

gordon: jie, want to stead ma ?
me: ( stares )
gordon: one minute
evan: gordon, steady la. you stead with her one minute then i stead with her one hour, okay ?
gordon: you crazy ah ? she so ugly, my lj is prettier than her luhs. hor jie ?
me: dont be sick boy :D

& then, he punch'd & pinchd me.
_l_ i hate people to pinch my cheeks can !
)&#)&@*(#&@(
he went off

evan: why you dont want to stead with gordon.
me: cze i dont want.
evan: you want to stead with me?
me: ....
evan: for one hour (:
me: might as well ,dont.
evan: okay la, one week. okay ?
me: no
evan: why ?
me: cze you're a sec one.
evan: no luhs. i sec two but 15
me: ya right.
evan: rlly ! gordon 14 leis.
me: -.-
evan: why you dont want to stead with me !
me: ..........
me: cze you're a sec one !
evan: rlly ma ? dont regret hor.
me: dont worry, i wont :D

he went off after hearing that wendy tio some taiji.
met my parents.
& play'd para !
people ! im back to para (:
<33333333333
KISS KISS KISS ; expert mode.
here i come !
im gna pass this bloody nice song (:

SUNDAY
skipped tuition.
went to mervyn's house instead :D
met ivan at 1
& headed to hougang to buy his cables.
at 4 plus. went back to pasir ris.
& in, aloha loyang.

& hell, ivanpeh injured me twice.
first, he tong pang me.
from down town to aloha loyang
i had to stand, cze there's no seat -.-
his tires rub'd against my legs.
thus, causing friction.
& MY LEG IS BURNT LA
T.T its red like fuck luhs.
second, at the acrade.
he lift up the machine there
cze my coin stuck ma.
he didnt see my leg there
& bang, he hit my leg D:
its blueblack now T.T
im crippled la ! )&$*(#&$_#

played para like hell :D
its free play (:
unlimited plays (: yay !
but sian la.
cze its 1st mix . =/

& thx cheryl .
for inviting me & giving so many wonderful treats :D
have more parties yeahs ? :DDD
haha
went home at 10
sian 1/2

MONDAY
HAPPY BDAE TO CHONGYIJIE

im gna skip'd the lessons part.
cze its simply ..
boring :D
lilian's super high today.
cze its 28 ?
yeahs. D: i still dont know the reason ?
i suck at guessing game la hor.
so people, dont ask me to guess next time yeahs ? :D

during english.
alicia pei me go apply some iodine on my leg.
cze it simply hurts D:
& hell, i was like screaming in the office la.
super pain can T.T
i cant tahan this type of pain la
)&_()@&#_(&#(@

went to haising after school.
find cleo (:
& while waiting.
that guy* came :D

him: oh its you.
me: yeahs its me (:
him: you stephanie's friend right ?
me: yups.
him: you got a nickname right ?
me: har ?
him: hmms. what is it ? let me think.
( walk away )
him : ( came back & sit next to me ) so .. waiting for your friend again ?
me: (laughs) yeahs (:
him: i see, i pei you wait. (:
me: oh, dont need la
him: whats your name ?
me: dont tell you :D
him: ohyah ! your nickname is dog right ? so hello dog (:
me: NO ! NO ! NO !

im gna kill stepahnie okay/
she's dead

cleo bought her bubble tea & we headed home (:
my leg ..
its rlly .. T.T
bwk la !
wlous ! all thx to ivan D:
my legs are soon to be scar'd
my legs !! D:

trust me.
i'll forget you.
& never , ever to bother you.
but .. its rlly hard.
i've tried so many times
but still, i cant get over you ,boy
seriously, i cant name any good points abt you.
我就是喜欢你
喜欢这样的你

2006-08-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

i know.
i dont make a good friend.
i dont make a good daugther.
i dont make a good jie
i dont make a good mei
i dont make a good lover.
i dont make a good sunnu
i dont make a good dog =/
im just a piece of useless freak living on this dead world.
thank lord, for giving such friends , which i dont deserve.
& why oh why.
he alr took my ahma away from me.
but why, he wants more ? D:
its so unfair .
i dont want to face anymore things.
reality is hurting me. D:
he's gonna leave me ..
with his broken promises.
i hate my grandfather !
how could him ! T.T
he's leaving me all alone. in this world.
& he's gonna enjoy himself in the other world.
i dont want !
i want him to be by my side.
protecting me , teaching me
lord, please.
i beg you.
dont take another of my kin away from me.
it rlly hurts.
my heart is breaking.
i cant take another blow .
rlly, i cant anymore.
im weak .

I guess.
im only good at making people angry ..
my big mouth rlly sucks.
i hate myself.
being so selfish.
i only care about myself.
how selfish can i get?
why cant i learn to give concern more ?
sorry . friends.
i guess, i rlly dont make a good one

he's ...
hurting me
你自由了走吧
请你默默的走 不要回头
因为你一旦回头；看我一眼
我就有勇气继续喜欢你
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i had no mood to blog la.
heh =/
maths was blah.
same goes for english & science.
absolute boredom =/

the Act 3 came & performed for us.
yeahs. its the same every year :D
& yuting's laughing like hell la ?
haha yeahs.
was quite funny la (:
but she laugh like ...
wow.
but still, cant compare with jiaqi :D

changed to PE for dance.
& it was cancelled last min =/
sian la.
i want more dance lessons.
to keep me occupied
at least, i've stuff to do
its better than to think that much
or other foolish things =/

went to tampines & watched Click <33333333>
its rlly very very nice luhs (:
i would rate it 4.5/5 (:
yeahs. super nice.
was touching at the end (:
me, cheewai& xiuwei cried la .
exp for that stephanie luhs !
she's cold blooded can !
mygod ~
its rlly very funny la :DD
there's a part where he can ' change colour '
as he got the universal remote ma :D
he was in the car , playing&exploring the remote :D
first, he was in yellow
& then he said that he's sick or smth
second, he was in green.
he acted hulk
third, he was in purple.
& guess'd what !
he acted BARNEY !
he sang, i love you, you love me
we are one big happy family :DD
we were laughing like hell la. :D
& also !
he had a golden retriever & a bulldog .
haha.
didnt know Shaowei & richard acted in this show :D
its a must see movie okay !
trust me, you wont regret (:

went back to school.
heard some unwanted news from my mum =/
thanks yuanyun, manpang& jiaqi
thankyou all many (:
thank you . for being with me.
when i needed someone most.
rlly thanks guys (:
i owe you all one.

& fuck mdm lina la.
she caught my skirt.
& she cut the strings , to make it longer.
_l_
i got pekchek la.
so i wear my shorts with my uniform home.
& everyone's like staring at me la
whatever can.
fuck mdm lima big.
i hate her to fuck.
fuck off la.
)&@#)&$)*&#$
knn ccb . fuckyoubig

AngXiuWei <3>
though she's silly& always clumsy .
her words rlly make me think & reconsider.
thank you ahma (:
you're always the best.
im not gna let anything happen to you
& i never want to see you to be sad again.
ring me, if you ever need me (:
im always by your side.
trust me :D
ILOVEYOU,GIRL

IvanPei Brother
thank you.
for helping me & giving in to me , everytime.
rlly thanks.
i think.
you're the only one.
that can stand my mood swings & stubborness
the best lil brother <3>
& your words.
i will always bear in mind.

Stephanie Koh
heh, that barney :D
she's always laughing&smiling no matter what.
my day was supposely to be spolit.
but somehow, she lit my day up again.
her laughther , her cum-gong-ness , her craps.
never ever failed to make me laugh.
i love going out with her la.
my troubles would seems so far far away

TanYuanYun <33333>
she's always nagging &amp; nagging & nagging at me.
correcting me when im in the wrong.
she's somehow, like my mum =X
haha :D
sometimes, she gets on my nerves.
but i know. all she did.
is for my own good.
i promise, i will try to listen to you okay (:

i dont want to say such a early goodbye <>

2006-08-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

如果没有你
日子会好一些吗？

EVERYBODY'S HIGH TODAY D:
First was Lilian :DD
cze of some things that happen ytd.
she still havent gotten over it yet :DD
Second was Cleo <3
haha. some things happen during band.
tsktsk :D
she's gonna tell me more luhs (:

Fabian didnt come to school today (:
means free periods la ! (:
haha. anyway,
that relief teacher is rlly ..
dot dot dot luhs.

he : o.O whats that thing on your nose ?
me : oh sticker (:
he : why is there sticker on your nose ?
me : to cover my pimples (:
he : oh, take it out.
me : oh okay.
he : so its a nose stud la ? i saw the needle there.
me : diao ><

he actually believes can.
how stupid la.
:DD

chinese was fun :DD
need to guess some cheng yu :D
i didnt guess one correctly can ><
how stupid D:
Shuxian's the one writting down the answers.
Gelin's the one, asnwering for the bonus qustions :D
Alicia's the one, recording the marks down.
Im the one, raising my hand up (: for teacher to take down.
& lilian's the one, aguring over the marks :DDDDD
haha

Stay'd back after school.
waited for yuanyun to have her lunch (:
went to ws.
buy yuenian chocolates (:

went to alicia's house later.
she showed me a video.
im like ...
WOW !!
she won the amercia's got talent show.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jcOOOebe7fs
( her ever first audition )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jvz-zqbnVd4
BRIACA RYAN (: <333 !
& the wow-est of all.
she's only 11!
she won 1 million US dollar okay !
1 million leis !!
tsktsk :DD

went for tuition.
sian'd .
Notations 3 D:
there's dance tmrw
(((((((((((:

DRAH'CIR
means i'll let go

Dont ever appear in my sight
though i'll miss you so
Dont talk to me ... ever again
but i'll miss your presence

& I LOVE JASMINEENGHUIMIN :DD
SHE ROCKS LA ! (:
DD 184 <3333333333333>

2006-08-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

伤心是因为想太多
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heh, people.
i wont be blogging as often le yeahs ?
sorry la.
im too busy with my stuff D:
& so sorry for those late reply of testimonials
currently on MIA in friendster.
i want to jam jam jam :DD

tmrw's 23 ! (:
& you know what date is it ?!
haha :DD
LALALALA.
im high high high ^^

sunday cheryl's party (:
its been like so damn fucking long since people invite me to thier party la. :D
my brother & neighbour would be going too (:

yesterday went to 230 (:
clarance,yuenian,wenting&gelin was there :DD
cheewai accompained me there.
heh, he told me stuffs about her luhs XP
anyway, gordan was there too.
i was shocked la.
didnt expect he would be there.
& the most shocking scene i seen !
tsktsk.
Mr. Tang actually smokes ! o.O
thats a rlly a wow wow la !
rlly luhs.
tsk. when he just had his first puff.
:DD he says he's giddy alr :DD
i think thats the reason why he didnt turn up for school today :DD
& I WON XUANDA & CHEEWEE !!
yes, i won them okay.
10 to 1 to 2 (:
xuanda => 2
cheewee => 1
yay ! chocolates for me ! (:

i'll stop here.
need to mug.
there's home ec & history test tmrw D:
wish me luck !

2006-08-20T05:12:00.001-07:00

我习惯你在我的身边
我习惯你斗我哈哈大笑
我习惯你跟我说密秘
这些习惯慢慢的变成了需要
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went to down to find Jabez .
tsktsk.
he wants me to take picture of him?
diao ?!
haha.

anyway, suppose to watch a movie with him de.
but instead i went to sengkang instead of cityhall.
i dont want go so far can?
go sengkang at least got straight bus ma (:
meet WeiZun.
ring Ivan, im such a nice jie okay.
i pei him go all the way to hougang to buy his cable (:
went back to pasir ris first, to meet Ivan 弟弟 :DD
walked to the Bus 53 Busstop, as he asked me to.
then i saw him walkin to ws.
im like wth ?
he say bastard was there.
im like wtf ? *^)@*#^!)!#@)$@
tsktsk.

& if YOU were to read this.
tell you.
dont badmouth me infront of YOUR friends can.
want scold me. come here.
SPAM me. i dont care.
SCOLD me, whatever.
call me bitch, slut, flirt, kp
whatever. i dont give a damn to anything that comes out of your bloody mouth.
& lilian.
dont ask why i hate him so darn much la.
you wont understand.

head'd to downtown instead of hougang :D
hoping to see gordan&evan
nah, no luck.
its been like so long since i saw them two.
tsktsk
ohwell =/

chatted&crapped with Ivan brother (:
hitted him loads of times.
sorry brother ! :D
met my little brother & neighbour there :D
& too !
I SAW VANESSA APPLE PIE !<3>
T.T she dont recognise me la.
saded D:
haha :DD

now i can go downtown play para whenever i like to luhs.
dont need bring money also can (:
why ? COME ASK ME ! :DD
><

& i reached home on time can ! (((:
yeahs ! :DD
& mummy told me that she saw mervyn ?
at elias mall :D
that time, me, alexBBkor& him were there luhs.
when me& him were tgt of course.
& i think my mummy's friends caught me ? =/
yeahs.
anyway, tell you what my mummy told me okay ?
very funny :D

my mum is at the kitchen.
her friend: joyce ! your daughter's bf brought a girl in !
mum: update la ! they broke up
her friend: ooohhhh.

my mummy told me not to be sad or whatever.
suddenly i felt my mum is like so understanding & caring luhs !
:DD
& my dad asked me whats my feelings when i heard it.
i told him ... like that like that luhs.
he praised me (:

i msged mervyn. :DD
wanting to disiao him la.
he say he brought a GUY in.
not a girl
& also, he say that he dont want to have stead.
he want to concentrate on his bball o.O
so is he telling lies ? or my mum's friend sexually blind ? :DD
HUANLO !! *&^)#^@@

& my mummy says he's a flirt !
im like .....
dots all the way.
he's not a flirt la.
tsktsk. :DD

让我再一次拥有，可以吗？

2006-08-19T21:11:00.000-07:00

我想我开始喜欢你
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IM BACK ~ ((:
yeahs. had that bloody damn walk D:
sian-ed.
at least its better than going to tuition luhs (:
saw some familiar faces at downtown.

ah, went to mcd to eat.
& there's one guy there.
serve super slow la.
tsktsk.
not saying im fast or whatever.
but its rlly darn slow.
my aunt told me.
so i kapo. go see see luhs :DD
wow. that uncle buying his meal there was so pekchek.
pekchek until throw his money at him o.O
haha

tsktsk :DD
went back to the hall
waited for the lucky draw thingy.
i wanted to go off at first.
as i thought i wasnt that lucky.
BUT ~
heng, my aunt stop me from walking away la.
cze i won the 3rd prize!
A 6 MEGA PIXELS DIGITAL CAMERA !
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
yes yes yes !!

host : now .. for the 3rd prize. who will be the lucky winner ?
me : ( sian'ed )
host : 1 ... 5.... 7... 5 . 1575 !
me : wow. its me! its me! its me! ( standing there, still )
aunty: run la girl ! stand here for what.
me: ( CHIONG !)

& i took less than 10 secs okay (:
i ran from one end to another luhs.
im alr smiling like hell.
thank god.
for giving me such luck ! (:
& too, thank god.
for giving me such wonderful people.

WeiZun <3 ,
he's always ther for me when i need someone (:
JasmineEngHuiMin <333
those laughter we shared (: i love her most la :D
GabrielYap (:
he's a nice guy okay :D
TanLilian :D
oh , that crazy girl that never fails to make me laugh like hell
Tan Sihui .
no words to describe :DDDDDDDDDD
StephanieKoh .
the one whom i crapped the most, she's the best la (:
RebeccaLim.
haha :DD she's just too wonderful (:
AngXiuwei .
though slow :D, but still. her words touched me
MadelineLeong <3
she's always the one for me (:
thank lord (:

maybe im going out again D:
i dont know.
I WANT TO WATCH MOVIE LA !
(*@^&)*^#*&

2006-08-19T16:35:00.000-07:00

its 715 now.
& i've got nothing to do.
thats why im here ! :DD
msn, there's no such early birds in singapore.
tsktsk.
my dear friends are sleeping like a pig.
=///////////

i had pizza for dinner yesterday.
it was (*^)#^)*&#@^*&^@
so i went for a jog :D
after jog, went to downtown.
to have my soyabean icecream for my reward ofcourse :D
heh, its like so stupid la
NO MORE ICECREAM !
can you believe it D:
had mocha instead of icecream.
blahs !
called ivan brother down & chatted :D
my aunty says he look like a 14 year old boyboy ?
LOL !
& i was smart enough to guess his password correctly okay !
see, smart girl :D
went home at 10. D:
slept at 11.30 (:

later im going to downtown.
for that big walk ((:
so chaos people !
upload my pictures later :D

2006-08-18T22:25:00.000-07:00

sorry readers for not updating yeahs ? :DD
My mother's ......... >:l
& fabian called stephanie a idiot :DD
super funny la.
on Thurday, we had art.
he's telling us all those homeworks thingy
we were asked to draw cartoon animals
stephanie (to lilian): hey, ask teacher about barney.
lilian: cher, barney can ?
fabian: barney .... is a idoit
LOOOL ! :DD

Yesterday was (*&amp;$##)&^$&*#^$
I was bloody shocked can!
STEPHANIE ACTUALLY CAME EARLY.
MIRACLE LA! :DD
rlly luhs. she came earlier than xiuwei.
thats a rlly wow wow :DD
anyway, she showed me mervyn.
as promised :DD
he looked the same la.
no different.
same goes to belvin :DD
alpha looked soooooo.
hahahahhahahaha ! >< color="#339999">weiji.
cant find him luhs . tsktsk =/

had a stupid maths test la.
journal writting D:
i finished it in 5 mins time (:
call me the pro la :DD

English & Science was a nut set
:DDDDD

paid 0 attention to Teacher Yuan's lessons.
:DD if i ever paid attention to his lessons, that would be a wow wow :DD
Saw some upper secs boys playing football there :DD
He was there (:
His back view looked that great.
My eyes cant get off him
the slient movie they all called.
i wished ..
heh, forget it.
it will never happen again

heh, our class went for assembly though it was upper sec's.
*(^&^%^&%$(#*$#
lilian was no where to be found.
saw mdm lina there.
im like.
die die die !
i took out my studs.
my straw.
stuck in super much.
pull down my skirt
take out my longlong ( :D )
heh. told you my life is hard when she's around.
had the same sexually talk.
me&stephanie wished rebecca was on our sides now luhs :DD

12.45
went for dance.
it was bloody darn hot la !
(*@^#)@&^#&@#
aircon spolit again =/
blast it la. :D
after dance, find xiuwei & lilian (:
chatted at canteen with cheewai :D
missy S was there.
_l_ her la.
tsktsk . im hating her more&more luhs.
stupid dumbdumb
anyway, sang an jing for my dear ahma :DD
haha

walked home with yenhuei&lilian :D
i miss my primary four classmate la !
hahaha :DD

monday - science test
wednesday - history&home ec test
_l_ D:

2006-08-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

& finally,
i pierced my nose la!
YAY YAY YAY ! (((:

haha. anyway.
dawang called ytd.
& i was high like fuck can. (:
yes!
but i think.
i made him dulan again. D:
ohwell.
im always making him dulan la!
whats wrong with me sia ! D:

anyway, today's boring luhs.
the lessons were all blahs.
but ms chung's .
^*$^@(%^%$#*&^%#(@^%($%@&
fuck her la!
stupid dumbdumb.
waste our time.
its always her.__

after school.
took cab to sp, find jasmine (:
wlous ehs.
there's like no cab around coralsec la!
wth man!
xiuwei's being so like a dog can.
haha.
i asked to to flag there.
she go there.
i asked her to flag here.
she come here.
AHMA DOG! :DD

reached sp.
went to mcd.
stephanie had her curly fries.
while xiuwei had her icecream.
& darling came! :D
yes! she came :DD
she's rlly nice&friendly can.
ahh, & it was fucking sweet of her to write those papers for me.

i love her to death can.
royston shoo farfar.
she's mine :DD

soon, went back to pasir ris. D:
saded la!
ohwell, i guess there would be a next time ba (:
ahma met her ***
:DD
super sweet la ! :DD

wei shen me, zai wo de yi sheng zhong.
mei you tian shi chu xian ne?
I used to you, making me smile.
I used to you, being by my side when im down.
I used to you, always letting me to have my own way.
I missed those times, or do i miss you?
i guess, whatever my answer is.
its still the same outcome.
its just a once a upon of time.

2006-08-12T22:01:00.000-07:00

Wo Zhi You Yi Gei BaoBei

ytd went to old market instead of marina =/
im like waiting for my mummy&daddy at marina.
then they say go to old Market =/
ohwell >:l
waste my money.
anway, watched the fireworks (:
dyper nice ~ (:

ahh ! my fringe LOL !
:DD

threesome :DD

watched the fireworks from 9 to 910 (:
heh, there's this indian kia.
LOL ! super funny la.
his younger brother asked.
where the fireworks come from ?
he replied.
oh they shoot the rifles.
aiming very good.
im like LOL la ! :DD
& too, there's a part where the fireworks came from the water.
& his younger brother asked again.
where it come from this time ?
he replied.
there's a canon in the water.
-.- '''
still, its funny la :DD

i love this cousin of mine :DD

:D
heh, i wanted to take a photo of them.
but ~ my brother's busy playing his gameboy.
& ryan's busy watching.
so i took from below luhs :D
how smart right ! :D

I don't need anyone.
I'm stronger than before

I'll upload the videos soon okay.
youtube's slow D:
it was darn crowded la !
mygod ~ haha
anyway, on the way to the carpark.
there's this group of people.
wlous, bo dua bo swa can !
they were blocking our way.
then my gan-ahma asked them to move.
they dont want & instead they shouted back at her.
my gan-ahma's son got angry & shouted in hokkien.
' so late alr, still stay here for what la. go home.'
they like super buey song la. ( who dont after getting a unreasonable scolding from a nobody)
followed us till old market there.
wanting to find my uncle.
he was very infront le.
then, they started to scold cb x3
my gan-ahma got bueysong again.
fought. almost paikshui.
heng la, one of them.
my friend.
he stopped her (:
thanks mike !
heh, youngsters nowadays. haha:D
9.45pm.
Home Sweet Home ((:

I'm closing my eyes alr.
*yawns
too tired la ! :D

talked to WeiZun all the way back.
thanks dude !

no edit (:

i know.
i look'd like a ghost right ?
heh, my editing skills sucks la .
D:

wait wait,
there's one photo of my brother acting dao.
ahhh !
i cant find where is it ! )*!&@#(!^#*!&^#

THERE ! :DD

& looked what i found o.O

heh, so long ago luhs !
i miss'd my dyed hair la ! T.T

alamak !
still, no one.
NO ONE JIO ME GO SEE MOVIE !
wtf -.-
=/ i guess, i would have to buy dvd ba.
stupid. =/

2006-08-12T01:17:00.000-07:00

All I know , I'm lost without You.
I'm not gonna lie.
How am I gonna be strong, without you.
I need you by my side

That night.
She waited for his call.
It's already 11.30.
Way past her Bedtime :D
Her friend, acccompanied her throughout the night
Finally, he called.
His voice just made her awake.
She can just go on chatting.
He, called her darling for no reason.
Her heart, beated like hell.
He asked that question again.
She's .. confused.
He's always been crapping&fooling around.
Even his closest friend, doesnt know when's he's serious.
Neither do i.
She thought , he's talking cock again
So, she crapped back
Though how badly she wanted it to be true
Hell, he was angry.
For not believing ,every single word he said is true.
He sounded disappointed & too, angry.
He kup the phone down & said He would call later.
She waited .
& waited ..
2.45am.
Still, nothing came from her phone.
How stupid can she be.
Maybe, she needed more time.
To think over it.
she doesnt want him to be hurt.
But come to think of it.
She could just agreed..
She could have that someone whom truely loved her.

He didnt call'd at the next day

Morning came.
She woke up.
& the very first thing she did.
She checked her phone.
Hoping there would have some miss'd calls.
3 messages.
WeiZun, Gabriel & Peilin.
She threw her phone aside & had her milk.
She waited & waited.
Then, he called.
She called back, immediately.
He asked why She said sorry to him, yesterday.
heh, it was sent to the wrong person
He sounded super pekchek.
Not even for a mintue, they put down the phone.

GAMEOVER

wei shen me . yi jie jiu be neng chong lai nen?

2006-08-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

Chatted with Ivan yesterday :DD
They are just a bunch of sicko's la !
Haha, seriously. :DD
Anyway, i laugh'd (: Thanks Ivan (:

I've nothing much to blog today D:
I think .. I may be going to Marine luhs. (:
& Stephanie .
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=21571032
Weiji's Friendster :DD
XIAOJI ! :DD

I'm not in any mood. again =/
He didnt ring me up .
His attitude towards me is cool.
I dont know what the fuck is wrong with me D:
this would be Temporarily .. i think =/
Love Sucks la.

2006-08-11T04:38:00.000-07:00

let see.
today start'd out boring luhs. D:
maths,science&english were all *^$(@&^#@*& !!
:DD
assembly was boring luhs .
i slept throughout (:

& fuck, my blueblack T.T

horrible right !? D:
heh, i dont know why la !!
grrrs.

then shebearbear told me smth.
stephanie's like ...
talking about one of us.
i think , should be me luhs. D:
& weiji is being so fucking kind can ! (:
me : ehs, you know who is _________ sec3 de.
he : eh, should be . why ?
me : ( tell him everything (: )
he : oh, you scared mehzz ?
me : yala ! T.T
he : when you see zeelia , call her to call me.
nice right ?!
i know luhs :DD
i think belvin doesnt want to talk to me leis D:

anyway, met cleo at hsc.
& i saw bryan there :D
he said HELLO & GOODBYE.
LOL >< ''' went to downtown.
chat'd (: next . 230 ((:
hell, i miss that place much :D
hoping to see someone there, to chat luhs.
ah, gordan & friends were there (:
& he call'd me jiejie leis ! :D
how cute can (:
he's my didi , anyone dares bully him.
heh, they die ! :D
he kept on giving me that face of his sia.
tsktsk, he says he want to quit smoking =/
ya, quitting but still smoke so much. <

REFLECTION (:
me & cleo cleo cleo ! :DD

cleo spotted this luhs. :DD

see ! im not the onlyone to hate him can.
:DD
& i didnt vandanlise it luhs.
my handwritting isnt that sucky XP

then, mervyn came.
i was .. SHOCKED !
my heart beated so darn fast la !
we .. chatted as usual luhs (:
yes, we talked (:
evan kept wanting me to lent my phone to him
he want to see my pictures ><
jabez came & they went home . tsktsk. :D

this ear belongs to jabez :DD
he was biten by his dog luhs.
thats why he's afriad of HIS VERY OWN dog
stupid la. :DD

it was fun walking cleo home with jabez (:
HSC,CORAL,ST/HILDA's :DD
& fucking hell,
he made fun of me can !
rahs !
he : joelyn , did you smoke ?
me : no la !
he : dont lie.
me : when i lie to you before ?
he : okay then, put your hands out. both your hand.
me : i dont want la, later you hit me.
he : i wont ( keep his hand behind his back )
me : oh okay luh. ( place my hand out )
he : ( stare at my nails ) now, stick out your tongue.
me : ( did what he ask me to )
he : okay, good doggy (:
WTH LA !! (*@&#(@^#(&@ ~

i gave you up.
jollywell, just siam D:

2006-08-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

430 .
boredom kills. D:
im planning to go to downtown.
hoping to see evan&gordon :D
but instead, i went to loyang point =/

met cleo there.
chatt'd (:
yeahs, she&her * :D
heh, she told me that she saw mervyn ?
yeps, he& another girl =/
should be his soon-to-be stead ba
:DD.
i wanted to ask him badly.
but nah, i think i shouldnt be so kapo.
ohwell =/

& tuition was blah .
ahh, i ate too full luhs !
my tummy gonna go BOOOM ! T.T
anyway, walk'd home D:
mummy's in a good mood today (:
thats why im here ! :D

jabez sent me some photos to edit (:
but i cant la ! D:
something wrong with my com D:
i want my laptop soon soon ! :DD

JABEZ KOH MINGZHU :D

HEAR, SPEAK, SEE
NO EVIL :D
haha, this is super funny can.
they are making fun of that auntie -->
hahahahaha :DD

MRS & MR KOH ! :D
yeahs. (:
at cityhall.
sweet ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! haha

( : edit'd by rachel
yeps.
310706 ((((((:
hahah, im happy for him la.
can ? :D

i know.
cant see anything right ?
heh, how the hell am i suppose to edit this ?
D: haha

going HSC tmrw (:
then i think .. going to parkway luhs.
cleo want to buy her clothes . D:

i left the game.
leaving him behind.
my soul exit'd, my heart didnt.
if i said, i've forgotten him.
im lying to myself.
how i wish'd i didnt end that game of ours.
but everything's too late.
im living with regrets now.
i know, i have to let him go.
& again , it isnt a chioce.
its a must.
#^* , give me one more week.
i need time ..

2006-08-09T20:08:00.000-07:00

heh, i stayed at home the whole day ytd D:
ohwell.

belvin jio'd me out to marine.
nah, too far.
& with them around.
i will be home LATE.
& bel wont be that kind enough to sent me home.
but they are watching the fireworks there.
i dont want to miss it D:
heh, i made a tough decision can.
i didnt go in the end.
im afraid of my mummy's naggys. >:l

anyway, watched the NDP at home.
& i saw my didi ! haha
dannson (:
yes, he's there.
heh, he's always making me worry for him can.
he injured his leg.
despite that, he still continue to run D:
& now, its like bleeding like hell.
ah ! he ah.
he doesnt know how to take care of himself.
heh =/

i like'd My Island Home. (:
super hyper nice luhs !
& the best part of all.
the fireworks. (:
went to sleep at 10
woke up at 9

& i checked my phone.
4 missed calls from belvin
23:59 , 00:00 , 00:01:04 , 00:001:54
see. told you they would reached home at 11 plus.

AHHHHHHH !.
there's tuition later D:
justmathematics.
having some pre-examinations thingy.
sian'ed D:

My super Ex-girlfriend, Click & Tokoyo Dirft
anyone ? D:

2006-08-08T22:33:00.000-07:00

heh. woke up at 1030 today.
people may ask.
why so late ?
all because of bel la.
i waited for his call luhs.
stupid sia.
sadly, no one jio me out today. D:
ahhh ! im bored at home can ><
& that kongkong game.
heh, my head like spin'g la.
all the character do is jump jump jump.
A BIG HAPPY BDAE TO
SINAGPORE & TOO, ALEX :D

jasminethian
i know its hard to let go.
11months of xinfu-ness.
noway its gonna be easy.
but no matter what.
i'll still be here, for you.
i'll lent you a helping hand if you need.
i'll lent you my ear, if you call'd
i'll lent you my shoulder, if you ever dropped your tears.
you are always by my side when i needed you most.
now, its my turn (:
i swear, i will never walk away just like that.
you are his guardian angel.
& i'll be yours.

ai zhe ni de mei yi tian
ni jiu shi wo de shi jie
xie xie ni, cheng jin ai guo wo
gei wo zhui hao de hui yi
wo bu zhi dai mei you ni
ri zi ru he guo
ke shi, wo zhi dao.
wo bu hui xiang yi jian na mo de kui le
na mo de kai xin.

2006-08-08T04:31:00.000-07:00

MONDAY.
frist lesson of the week,
HISTORY.
*yawns.
im getting sick&tired of history can. >:l
i dont understand a single thing luhs.
heh. oh heck.
science was blah.
i think ..
that ms low rlly is having a baby luhs :DD
we'll see in a few months time :D
did some pair work.
pair'd with alicia (:
pass'd up in 10mins time.
& there, teacher gave us a straight A without looking (:
thats how good our work is luhs :DD
bake'd banana cake (:
blast that tanlilian can.
she's like putting flour on everyone's faces.
stupid dumbdumb.
i didnt like banana cake at first.
i hate that banana smell in banana cake :D
but then, after eating MY banana cake.
im starting to like it luhs :D
heh. my skills rocks la uh. :D
maths was ruin my whole day can.
rahs >:l
after maths, me,lilian&stephanie ran like siaozharbors can.
hahaha :D
we decided to skip that survey thingy luhs.
& without knowing. we left poor alicia behind.
AHHH ! :DD
went for the coralsuperstar final (:
while waiting.
i saw daddy.
LOL ! he was carrying a bagpack.
so cute la !
& there go lilian.
sang her stupid guiji >< !
talk'd to johnathan . LOL
i kept on threatening him.
using " i tell my mummy ah "
LOL :DD
alicia sang rlly well luhs (:
i like'd her voice.
so sweet can.
wilson aint bad either.
stanley's group came first (:
congrats la (:
reach'd home at 5.30
belvin call'd.
asking me to meet him at 230 at 6
so okay luhs.
wlous ehs.
i waited for him for one hour can !
heng yuenian was there (:
he accompany me throughout the wait (:
thanks dude.
terence,wenting,thaigay:D,shinhai,waimun,stanley&yunling were all there.
( ROY G BIV ) LOL ><
wa, & i cant stand T* can.
he ah, kept on calling yunling, baobei bAobEi BAOBEI.
ahhhhh !
hahaha :D
tell you, waiting for him&weiji can rlly die.
they finally came, at 745 ><
stupid la uh.
chat'd & then i went home.

TUESDAY.
had NDP celebration.
& it was kinda boring ?
yeps yeps.
& I WON THE BET OKAY ! (:
yes yes yes !
tanlilian, you owe me a dare (:
i sat there, with yuanyun&xiuwei.
then i suddenly rmb'd its alex's bdae tmrw.
then i shout ,
" ohyah, ming tian shi alex de sheng ri "
yuanyun call'd me to shhh.
im like why ?
& i turned my head.
ahhhh ! he was there all along.
*fingers cross.
hope he didnt heard it luhs.
its so embarrasing can !
i brought that bearbag to school today.
& like , everyone's staring at it ><
mrlim is like ..
tsktsk. :DD
daryl aw's getting cuter luhs ! :DDD
how how how ! haha
went home, changed.
& met yuanyun.
on the way there, i saw xuanda (:
yeps, MY PRIMARY ONE CRAP MATE :D
hahah.
he would always crap with me luhs.
we get into troubles together :D
hahahaha.
bought my shirt at cine.
saw prettygelin,kystrel&tiara :D
haha. gelin rlly lady-like (:
i found out something.
there's no RF4 in orchard can. ><
saw ivanlim on the way home today.
his eyes is rlly darn small can ! haha :D
he grown yandao-er le (:
yes, with his small eyes.
can say he's cute lor.
haha
yuanyun doesnt want to go to bugis.
thus, went to tampines luhs. (:
& & & & !
I SAW ADRIANO !
yes, him !
i cant get my eyes off him la .
:DD
rlly too keai le.
heh, but too bad.
he's short de lor XP
but still, he's cute (:
had longjohn's.
first, we saw waimun they all.
stanley is so "kind" to help me finish my fish ><
THEN ~ surprising.
i saw hebearbear & shebearbear :D
yes, THEM ! :D
haha. next, saw alicia,vivian&sihui (:
they watch'd the lake house.
ahhh ! they claim that its nice.
i want to watch la.
some kind soul, somewhere.
watch with me leis ! D:
it was only 430 .
heh, yuanyun went home.
belvin call'd.
met him at 230again.
this time, saw xuanda again.
with kelmond, adam,zhongting:D,junason,thaigay:D &
some other guys which i dont rmb their names XP
yeahs (:
crapped with them is like so fun la ~ (:
belvin sent me home.
ahhh, was crapping like hell can.
he treated me like his dog.
stupid la hor.
he sent me up then he asked me to sent him down to ground floor again.
wlous, ><>
he's still a kid la.
cant blame him :D

he's getting nicer&nicer each&every single day.
& im getting more&more gulity.
i dont want to be fool'd&play'd again.
no guys can be trusted.
there's no tonghua in this world.
i want to create my own.
but it seems so impossible.
#^* , sua.
i cant face it.

2006-08-05T22:30:00.000-07:00

i shall start from ytd (:
met rebecca at ws , 8.30am.
& as usual she was late. =/
ohwell, im used to waiting for people. :D
reach'd city hall at 915 ?
yeahs, fucking early luhs
shop'd. or should i say walk'd around in city link.
its like only the HMV is open luhs.
tsktsk. so went in
& listen'd to breaking free :D
haha, all thanks to daryl luhs
he made this song like so funny can. :D
three fire alarms went.
me&rebecca like wth ?
all false de. ><
anyway, xiuwei call'd
& she broke up D:
heh, 5 months of happiness together.
she's willing to let go just like that ?
i rlly wish'd
they can patch up.
next, belvin call'd.
wa, he sounded so dead.
he was drunk, thats why :D
at 955 met anges&joey.
took our cans&bears.
& off we went.
fh. THERE'S NO KIND SOULS IN CITY HALL CAN.
we started from 10
& till 11. i have like only 1.20$ ?
pathatic la.
saw belle they all,
relaxing at starbucks.
we join'd in.
i msg'd richard.
asking where is he now.
he said he's in tampines
& he had his can half-fill'd.
im like wth ?
so we, zoom off to tampines.
my luck is like ...
tsktsk.
people donated 1$ to rebecca.
while me,
people only donated 10cents.
stupid la ><
(: call'd ivan down.
& YAY ! he help'd me can (:
i didnt know he's so kind la.
hahaha
his luck was good ?
yeahs, 4 people been putting in 5$ note in.
im like ..........
ahhh, lost for words luhs.
anyway, ianbenjamin was there too.
haha, {/** went nuts over him :DD
i didnt know he's so mean la.
he cop people's money can.
he show me his wallet.
im like wa,
there's like , atleast 30+$ in there luhs.
tsktsk.
& there's one girl whom asked for his number.
i was laughing like siao can. :DD
he say that his number is too precious to be given away.
ya right, precious :D
overall, he's still nice luhs :D
haha.
went back to cityhall.
& then head'd to sengkang.
for my dental appointment
RED&WHITE.
I LOVE SINGAPORE :D
haha, the colours on my braces (:
had some conversations with mel just now.
through friendster.
overall, its MY FAULT okay.
im selfish enough, thinking that he can cheer me up.
im attituded. fine,whatever.
powerless. i've no more energy left.
ITS MY FAULT THAT WE HAVE COME TO THIS.
ALL THE PROBLEMS ARE CREATED BY ME.
YES, ME NOT YOU.
jollywell, just go.

heh, this all came too sudden.
i cant take any more things.
im just a sec2 girl, a bendan.
my brain can go kaboom anytime.
my heart is at a mess.
my mind is at blackhole.
i know, he's aint worth.
but i loved him once.
time is all i need.
#^* , sorry.
i dont want to hurt anyone, anymore

2006-08-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

people.
its not that i dont want to.
its i CANT.
& i wont tahan anymore.
he's getting on my nerves laaaaaaaaaa

me:
LOL
this song is so funny luhs ><

mel:
what so funny
LAME ASS

me:
tsk, you dont know the story.
so shutup luhs :D
its not lame okay
& why did you run away when you see me leis ?
tsk !

mel:
whatever lame or nt lame.
whats wit ur :D
anywae , i did nt run when i see you.
since we havent been tokin.
what wit ur writing testi to me ?

me:
wtf ?
sua

mel:
(forgotten what la)

me:
heh
i thought
we could be like the past
but i think
with that attitude
impossible
ohwell

mel:
oh .
i don look bak to the past.im nt interested in the past
and i wil nv be like in the past.
whatever is over , IS over .
no point turnin bak n tokin craps now.
sometime i wish i din noe you.

see, lilian.
its not MY fault .
its his fucking attitude can.
if this is what he wants.
fine, i'll pretend that i dont know him.
i'll pretend he doesnt extist.

2006-08-04T03:23:00.000-07:00

WOW !
LILIAN CAME TO SCHOOL TODAY CAN .
><>
she's hyper high today.
after morning assembly had some lame stuffs thingy.
for the NDP celebration luhs.
seetoh kp leis.
ask'd us to stand up&down like dogs like that ><
maths test was soso luhs.
next was english.
mslow says that im KIND okay.
K-I-N-D ((((:
saw mslow's book.
where she kept all the records of the marks of her students .
LOL.
i saw tientien's .
wow, she ah.
rlly very smart luhs (:
& i didnt know that khee sen was in 3/6
me : (looking at the book)
mslow : (standing beside me )
me : wow, khee sen in 3/6 ah ?
mslow : ya. you know him ?
me : ya .. sort of
me : ehs, cher why he like nowadays never come school le ?
suspended ?
mslow : nopes, he suspended himself. i thought you were his friend ?
me : ehhhs, nola. not say friends luhs.
mslow : how did you get to know him ?
me : oh there's once where our class sat beside his.
then we like talked there luhs.
mslow : oh, if you are kind enough. please, asked him to come to school yeahs ?
me : ohokay . since im so NICE, i help you ask him to come to school luhs
KDD
recess was boring =/
*yawns.
after chinese, went to the AVA room for the CIP briefing luhs.
sian half can.
we skipped assembly =/
haha, i've been looking forward for this assembly luhs XP
had to go all the way to city hall to clock'd 4 hours of CIP.
heh =/
hope to see SOME KIND SOULS there luhs KD
*fingers cross.
stayed back after school.
wait'd for yuanyun (:
saw the NDP celebration show.
wooo, boring =/
& IVAN PEH.
I DONT TALK TO SMOKERS OKAY.
ahhhhh !
my primary school's having the SingSingapore Compeition thingy.
& my brother left without me !
wtf sia !
i want to go T.T
heh =/
im waiting for his call now.
he's asking mrwai if i can go anot =/

i dont give a fuck to you anymore.
flirts never change.
you didnt asked for a breakup.
but somehow i know, its over.
im not angry or sad or whatever fuck la.
just that.
i didnt know he's so humji luhs
he didnt ask'd for a breakup.
because he doesnt want to be single.
NOT because he still loved me.
he did, i ever felt it.
but it was only just a period of time.

friends are much much much more important than steads.
friends are the one whom always, always, stay by your side.
friends are the one whom cheer'd you up.
friends are the one whom always FIRST notice that you down .
friends are forever. while stead nevers.

2006-08-03T07:08:00.000-07:00

ytd, after sending cleo home.
went to 230 & played basketball (:
im starting to like basketball (:
i didnt know it was that fun luhs.
played with yuenian, my didi & some other guy XP
saw kelmond .
wa, rlly.
he slim'd down luhs ! :D
& again
today, lilian didnt attend school =/
yuenian was kind enough to buy me chocolate can (:
yay ! HE 'ROCKS' LA ! :D
first was art.
stephanie , was piss'd by fabian ><
heh, cause of a stupid reason la .
she didnt pay the fine.
you see, we had this stupid fine system.
whereby if we dont hang in our works on time,
teacher will fine us luhs.
50cents per day delayed.
lame ~
she agured & was super angry luhs.
but still, i made her smile la
see ! :D
i ate yuenian's chocolates during art. (:
fabian was stupid enough not to notice luhs XP
had pe next :D
play'd badminton. AGAIN.
ahhh
i was falling all over can D:
NOT FUNNY !
played with daryl & nicholas.
those two cartoons kia.
:DD
never fail to make me laugh luhs (:
teacher chen got pekchek with us ?
yeahs, she just walked out of the class
without us saying our favourite goodbye's :D
got back our class photo.
& fuck luhs.
i look'd like shit can ><
D: ohwell.
im always looking like a shit :D
so no surprise luhs ><
watched coral superstar thingy (:
i liked alicia's voice.
her singins rocks leis (:
i msg'd mervyn since 1154am
& no reply yet =/
i sat on the chair, eating my bread.
& i placed my leg at the other chair opposite me.
xiuwei came.
i place my leg down & when im about to put back up again
i hit someone. =/
alex, liyinliang.
he gave me that " tsk, you very gu yi " face.
like super fierce luhs.
his eyes were hyper big.
i was shocked & frightened.
i didnt know he was so fierce =/
went to alicia's house.
do sbl luhs.
sian half.
& we talked to calvin can :D
haha.
he said lor, la, lei
i didnt know he know how to say that ><'''
1524 still no reply.
i gave up.
alicia ate her dinner at 6 in mcd.
we were obviously late for tuition
she finished at 615 & rushed to justmathematics.
i was moodless all the way.
alexang told me something.
i trusted him cause i believe he wont lie to me.
pekchek all the way.
my brother took the fries away & i scolded cheebye.
my father heard it & scolded me =/
he asked me to stay away from mervyn ?
& say that im too small to be in a relationship.
whatever fuck.
adults dont ever understand us, teenagers.

thanks for acting like you cared.
thanks for those mushy& touching words you saidto hong me
thanks for showing me , whats "love"
i dont need anyone's love.
i dont need anyone's attention.
its not a chioce,
its a must.
i knew the truth but i acted as if i dont.
the reason is simple.
cause i thought love can change anything, everything.
how wrong was i. =/
i dont want to be hurt in this way.
it totally suck.

2006-08-02T01:19:00.000-07:00

1st AUG
had morning assembly.
was just as boring luhs.
i turned my back.
stephanie & alicia were not there.
i thought she's late. ><
nah, BOTH of them pon'd
like wa, pangseh me & lilian luhs.
lit was blah.
same goes for english.
blahhhhhh all the way.
after school, had dance.
like only 15 turned up ?
yeahs ><
had some stupid dance laaa.
i dont like ><
& that ivan peh CHUMING
made junie cried can.
stupid la hor.
heh, he was that ever first person to slap her luhs.
she was rlly crying until very jialut. =/
she wants him to kneel down & apologise.
i asked him to.
he didnt want.
heh, i was sort of angry at him la.
just kneel down & say a simple sorry also can't ..
so i went up, find zyndie. (:
i told her that ivan want a patch.
but .. she didnt believe luhs. heh. =/
finally, junie SMILE (:
& let go of yingyu's shirt.
ivan & yingyu were like gone ?
yeahs. i thought of this incident luhs.
i .. felt bad luhs.
like that scold ivan .
its not totally his fault .
ahhh >:(

2nd AUG
CME ... free periods ! (:
got back history ..
28/50 ><
ohwell, i suck at history la uh.
i slept throughout teacher chen's lessons ?
yeahs.
i took three chairs.
& i was sleeping soundly (:
then .. she woke me up la.
kkkkkkpppppp
i was sleeping so fine luhs.
i hate her man.
& alicia was bitch enough to write stuff on my leg can.
ahh .
maths.
can rlly die sia.
she's kping alot alot alot alot.
old hag can ><
after school.
lilian & alicia like disappear ?
heh =/
i was walking down the stairs .
with stephanie ..
i was singing&singing.
then ~ i saw richard there.
sang gui ji
next, wo hui hao hao guo.
third, li xiang qin ren :D
was singing half way then i fell down.
fell down .. down the stairs.
D: my pigu bang on the floor can.
pain de lor.
there. stephanie was laughing like hell laaa.
wlous, i dont like her luhs.
& worst part of all.
no one . NO ONE care to pull me up luhs.
then jiang zi shu was behind.
i actually chu chou in front of him . ><
& IVAN PEH CHUMING.
was also there !!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why oh why.
must i .chu chou in front of that GUY !
T.T
he was there, disiaoing me can.
heh.
jialut luhs T.T

VAMPIRE
VAMPIRE
VAMPIRE

2006-07-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

heh.
its super true to a guy. yeps (:
got this from warren's blog.
dont ask me how okay :D
xiuwei. you should read this luhs (:
hahaha :DD

Message:
You might agree with it, but when it
actually happens 99% of girls dont realize it till it is too late
and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has
moved on to someone who will take notice.
From a guys point of view:
We don't mind if you talk to other guys.
We don't mind if you're friends withother guys.
But when you're sitting next to us,and some random guy walks into the room
and you jump up and tickle him, without even introducing us,
yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes
without even acknowledging the fact that we're stillthere.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in
the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothingis that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till themorning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/gorgeous/ cute/ stunning,
we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
( yeahs. bullshits :D )

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FORYOU!
DON'T "FEEL BAD" We enjoy doing it. It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."
( i'll never do that luhs, but its what they feel. heh, ohwell )

Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us
when you know somebody's looking,
we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place,
you don't haveto feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have
or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We likeyou for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful whenshe's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
( xiuwei .. understand ? :D )

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don'ttalk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, orJesse McCartny is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!"
instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/sexy"
or whatever else you can think of.
on the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether (:

IF YOUAREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY,
DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.
DITCH HISSORRY, DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS,
AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even whenyou make mistakes. Someone who will love you,no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes
....and say "i love you" ... ....AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT
( fucking craps eh , guys would never understand us, girls)

if this is what guys rlly felt.
im lost for words luhs.

2006-07-29T22:02:00.000-07:00

我越来越喜欢你luhs

FIRDAY.
it was my birthday,
but i didnt feel any joy. AT ALL.
he didnt wish me a happy birthday.
& we agure .. the night before
=/
didnt have assembly.
it was uppersec's.
heh, so went out of the class.
wanting to "relax"
mdm lina was there, asking or should i say.
shouting for me
i ran back in.
hoping she wont come & kp =/
heh, she did.
in the end.
fcuk her man >:l
she asked me out.
she: you know why i asked your out ?
me : ya.
she :why ?
me : cause of my skirt =/
3/10 walked passed.
she pulled out some of the girls.
thier uniform ofcos.
=/ i was standing there, tucking so in my blouse.
she: okay , you come here
me : (went there, duhs)
she: dont you know how rude you were just now. (eyes super big)
me : (stareback)
she : you stare somemore & im gonna dig out your eyes.
you are getting more&more rude . i think, im gonna call your parents.
me: sorry .
she : sorry for .. ?
me : sorry for being so rude just now.
she: now , go back & if you dont change your attire on monday.
im gonna give you bms, this is your last chance.
heh. my life in coral is getting worse & worse when she's around.
fuck her man.
waited for yuanyun.
netball end early (:
went to canteen to get some drink.
sway enough, saw mdm lina
she: ohokay. you dont have to wait till monday.
im gonna give you bms. monday, come find me.
im like wth
she say monday then say de lor.
stupid la.
jiaqi saw 45 & she was running like mad ?
he is so scary ? ><<
when me&lilian walked pass him.
she kept on disiao-ing me luhs.
sang aimei ..
ahhhh! stupid dumb dumb !
he's HISTORY luhs.
:D

SATURDAY
reached school at 630 ?
yeahs. was super early lor.
its like only me,daryl&rachelle there nia.
the school seems so quite & dark ><<
was suppose to meet at 630
& blooy hell they were all so late.
daryl was first to reach.
then me.
& then shoawei came at 650
nicholas came at 715
alicia came at 730
zisheng came at 745
stupid eh ?
it went well ?
yeahs. & mskoh love it ! :DDD
had mcd & went home (:
& I LOVE THAT PRESENT ALICIA GAVE ! (:
she's rlly nice lorh !
(: i love her to death man.
my mum's jealous luhs :D
haha. went to downtown.
& as usual.
i was the first to reach.
they all were late luhs.
went in the arcade.
saw chirstina&jingyi they all.
they wanted me to play.
but nah. i rejected thier offer of treating me to play para.
:DD
im shyyy. XP
xiuwei,steph&bear came :D
alex told me that mervyn's not coming ?
im like wth.
i called his house.
his maid says he's not at home.
im like ..
wtf la.
have totally no mood can.
at 215
saw alex walking in the acrade.
i went in to find him
& mervyn was there with alex.
im like again.. wth ?
they gang up & tricked me ?
& mervyn didnt say sorry & acted dao all the way.
utterly disappoined luhs.
i walked to pasir ris park.
& walked back to downtown.
i had a U-turn at the mart there :D
xiuwei,steph&ivan were finding me ?
haha. sorry guys.
i've made you worried :D
i sat outside at the pool, alone.
alex,mervyn&chian came.
im kind enough to forgive him can.
heh, went to elias .
mervyn played bball.
while me&alex sat there,watchin him play =/
alex is such a kind kor can. (:
he bought me a lollipop :D
haha. bb mei ma :D
walked to his house.
heh, we were left outside.
he forgot to bring his keys.
now i know how steph felt luhs :DDD
then ~ we sort of agure again D:
heh. i dont know .. what is inside his mind okay.
i was suppose to reached downtown at 830
but i pei him till 930
i was pekchek, went to downtown.
i crossed the road, without watching for any cars.
& i almost get hit by a car can.
i had a big scoldings from mummy

SUNDAY
didnt went to tuition today
overslept XP
& GABRIEL YAP WEN SIONG RMB-ED MY BIRTHDAY :D
he bought me a present too (:
how kind of him yeah ?
:DD
& fuck , i think ..
im sick D:
heh, playing maple soon =/////
dont ask why , :D

2006-07-23T04:45:00.000-07:00

its gonna to be long (:
friday went for bms
with alicia.
heh, i thought it's gonna be boring.
but nah !
uncle tan gave us a lecture.
i was like. zzZZzz
he kept on asking me to pay attention.
& not to be so active -.-
the best part is ,
we had one hour of bms & free food ! (:
yeahs. envy ma ? :D

yesterday, went to jazz.
& i was the first to reach.
heh, boredom D:
then, ms ng came.
we chatted. i found her rlly rlly nice (:
then ~
stephanie was the second one to reach.
ohmy ~ its a miracle can.
haha :D
after jazz, chiong to downtown.
meet mervyn (:
didnt expect to see chirstina & benji ( something like that )
& he's actually mel's cousin !
unbelieveable :D
mervyn told me.
he doesnt know how to play para.
he danced.
i was like .. lost for words.
its super nice .
rlly ! still say he cant dance.
heh, suan me only T.T
made some new friends ?
yeahs :D
& had some kisses on my cheecks. :D
haha. dont ask .
they played pool.
heh, then went to pasir ris park.
walk walk walk walk walk.
that uncle there, played maple lor !
he's like in his 50's ?
yeahs. o.O
went to weiq's house.
heh.his house is like..
SO BIG !
its was 10 plus.
he sent his stead home,
while mervyn&belvyn sent me home :D
bel is super lousy lor !
walk awhile then complain leg pain
tsktsk. BO HEH.

i skipped tuition today.
dont feel like going.
went to mervyn's house.
his house is like .
super nice lor !
ncier than mine =/
its rlly nice.
& his dog !
so cute can !
she rape me lor ! -.-
haha.
met ivan,stpehanie&zixiong at ws.
heh, they two ..
quiet like hell sia.
watched pirates of the caribbean2
nice (:
but i fell asleep =X
heh,was rlly tired lor
my mum says that the bearbag isnt nice.
i box her sia
its nice de lor.
she doesnt know how to appericate nice things.
tsk :D
HE SENT HER HOME !
YES YES YES !
MY MISSION, COMPLETED (:
PEOPLE. BE PROUD OF ME !
haha
renfred is getting more&more yandao !
he rock can !
saw him in some show, fei chan xin jia po.
elvin ng was in there too ?
yeahs, & LISTEN PEOPLE.
my family, all agree with me that he's not shuai
renfred is much better.
:D

MY VAMPIRE (:
i will always be here.
whenever you need me
TIONGXIM KIA #2

2006-07-22T17:46:00.000-07:00

not blogging often (:
sorry readers :D
& A HAPPY BDAE TO
JOELLE& RICHARD (:

i like those papers.
you wrote. (:
though with ugly handwrittings but still
heh. (: you make it so wonderful.

2006-07-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

on the way to school,
i told yuanyun how i know richard.
she's interested to know lorrrrr.
haha :D
xiuwei&cw sort of agure ?
yeahs, she was sad D:
heh. CME was like fuck la.
teacher show attitude can.
my god, she says that we are showing attitude to her.
its like, wth la.
is she herself, show attitude to us lor.
stupid la ~
first thing in the morning tio scoldings.
im like alr, heh.
no mood to study.
next was history.
& blah blah blah blah.
bought peanuts during recess ( :
very hard okay ! D:
stuck in my bloody braces.
so i ate some & gave the rest to ivan
:DDDDDDD
he gave me my 10 lollipops (((:
or should i say 9 =/
he cop one la. LOL
we had a test .
chinese test.
close passage, was easy.
compre one was easy.
compre two was like so darn hard.
i dont understand a single thing -.-
its about a movie screening thingy la.
then, half way through.
someone walk passed, & someone kept on looking&looking
:D haha.
went to the lab for science.
did pratical with stephanie. =/
i dont want do pratical with her le la !
she was irritating me lor !
tsk ! her childishness never change :D
maths was boring *yawns.
after school, went to the lab.
to practice some graph on some laptop.
took a bloody long time la ~
one hour, waste my time.
chiong to shaowei's house at 2.54 ( :
heh, his house like so quiet lor.
& i was the only girl there T.T
alicia had her tuition .
heh, nicholas was kind enough to give me eat his fries okay (:
unlike zhisheng.
heh, THAT MEANIE !
he doesnt want to share.
i was laughing like hell la.
wlous, super funny.
they can rlly make me laugh (:
i liked them laaaa (:
too bad alicia missed out the fun.
mervyn asked if i wanted to meet him at 230
i thought over it & nah.
too lazy .
bastard & daddy fought (:
no body win or lose D:
i thought daddy will win de okay !
D: , nah.
i hope he's not injured badly (:

zhen zheng de xin huan yi gei ren,
you na mo xin ku ma ?
wei shen mo, wo jiu bu neng xinfu ner ?
wo xiang zhe shi ming yun ba.
its just life.
life is full of misery & pain.
heh, cant change.
one sided love is rlly tough.
one need loads of energy, while another.
bochup.
one would always suffer like hell,
while another,
heh. BOCHUP ~
DAN LIAN HAO XIN KU OH ~
i never want to be in this position ever again

3R , lefthand, leftankle . right ankle.
its cut.

2006-07-18T05:44:00.000-07:00

jiaqi was not herself in the morning ?
yeahs, she was not crapping & laughing.
heh. ohwell, rushed maths.
i did question 3 instead of 4
first period was lit (:
did group work. heh, daryl was crapping all the way
tsktsk, MY LITTLE BROTHER !
hahaha :D
& guess what,
our group got full marks for the script okay !
all thank to me, the brainy (:
lilian&stephanie were liking teasing the poor calvin can !
heh, two meanies.
i only can heard laughter from thier groups.
ITS HYPER LOUD DE LOR
next was english,
heh. me&stephanie sort of went for a walk la.
was bored . =///
she told me that upper sec were having PE (:
haha. i went hunting for a bear :D
haha, there !
(: with ivan&JS
& there he was,
with his thinkers shirt on (:
he didnt looked up.
perhaps, he didnt notice i was there all along.
or is he not wanting to look ?
after recess was mt.
heh, teacher chen again.
im starting to hate her laaa.
heh, I WANT TEACHER YUAN BACK ! D:
we all miss him can ! haha
lilian told me smth.
haha, was so damn happy
that she notices him (:
MATHS WAS BORING. =/
lilian&steph kinda skipped ?
yeahs, they got some scoldings from teacher.
was SBL next.
heh, didnt do anything much.
steph was seated far far away.
T.T ( :
had dance.
instuctor didnt come.
some sickness -.-
heh, in the end.
had to teach some juniors steps.
was kinda pissed.
not by my junior la.
its like, i dont like to teach.
i cant teach dance.
i only can learn. -.-
ohwell, after a while.
i went out, to find xiuwei,lilian&koh
with ruliet :D
heh, she ah !
we walk on the super hot ground okay !
just because not to pass by jomeo.
heh. ohwell.
after dance, went to find CHUMING (:
he said he's at the D&T room there.
i looked&looked&looked.
he's not in there la.
then ~ rebecca&i saw some half naken boys running playing football.
heh.
first, i saw cw.
then, nigel
NEXT, JOMEO
haha. we exhanged glances & started to laugh
its rlly hyper funny lor !
i walked back to the canteen .
as i rlly cant find chuming anywhere
someone called me.
heh, i was smart enough to say it was chuming.
his voice ah. tsktsk :D
i turned my back, cant see him
soon, i spotted him
heh.
THERE HE WAS.
BEING A GOALKEEPER.
HALFNAKED. OHMY ~
hahahahahahahah.
me&rebecca were like laughing &laughing !
its hyper funny lor
haha.
he gave me my lollipop
thanks dude (:
went home.
on the way back, yj called someone.
suddenly, lilian walk super fast
im like, whats wrong with her man.
i turned my back.
heh, HIM
yj kept pushing him,asking him to catch up with lilian.
i sort of shout that lilian doesnt want to see him.
& walked off with yuanyun

wo shi yi gei ai qing bai chi.
he's rlly rlly rlly advoiding me.
heh. i rlly dont know what to do.
im rlly in love with him
dont ask why,
cause i dont even know the reason.
all i wanted is him to say hi.
or at least, a smile .
heh, he didnt even look at me.
not even a glance.
i know. its rlly over.
he never know how much i wanted himback.
NEVER EVER
& i dont wish him to know either
give me one more week.
& i'll leave you alone.
i will never appear in your sight again.
i will never bother you again.
just give me some time (:
let me have the last look at you,
before i say goodbye.
before i regret.
my love for you will soon be gone,
i swear.

VODKA,LOLLIPOPS.
heh, those things make me high
all thanks to dexter (:
that drink, im addicted to it.
thanks for tonight (:
im loving it.
my bestest best kor
the sweetness in lollipops :D
call me a kid, whatever.
i love it so darn much ~
my worries will be far far away (:

2006-07-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

after hours & hours of thinking.
i've come to this conclusion.

guys are all mean things
they think we , girls are toys for them
for them to play with.
for them to kiss with
for them to hug with.
guys left me these impressions on them
cant blame me, blame them.
they dont know how to treasure girls whom truely loved them.
this doesnt imply for everyguy.
heh, i guess ivan was right.
im such a bendan.
a bendan who doesnt know whats truelove
a bendan who dont know her own position.
a bendan who is blinded by love
a bendan who acceptted a guy, who doesnt love her.
a bendan who is soso stupid to fall in love with him
a bendan who cut,cried for a guy.
a bendan ... a bendan ... a benda ...
overall, im just a bendan la !
heh, its life.
soon, i'll have to face it

2006-07-17T03:44:00.000-07:00

LOVE'S HURTING ME

without my aunt, my world is turned upside down la.
my alarm clock didnt ring ?
yeahs, woke up at 630 by my dad
heh. i rush okay.
was ready in 640 (:
fast eh, i know.
was heng enough that bus89 havent come la (:
wanted to find ivan in the morning.
heh, im just too lazy la
besides, i cant find him anywhere
ohwell.
during assembly,
lilian&stpehanie were discussing about my bdae present.
heh, they decied to buy a bloody dog chian for me la !
stupidlame gina.
tsktsk.
history was as usual, boring T.T
next was science & then english.
we did some carrot cake during home ec (:
yeahs, it was fun okay
& IT TASTED NICE (:
but the cream, its like super yucky.
i dont like =/
i wanted to kop some clarance&mapang
but they give it to zisheng =/
& he doesnt want to share with me
rahs, >:(
_______ msged me, asking where's koh.
i replied, she's having D&T lesson.
he went there, to find her (:
but he didnt see her in the end ?
sadening yeah? :D
i told stephanie.
haha, he's rlly ...
heh, cant use any words to describe.
she told me that he did walk pass her class.
but his head was turned in the opposite direction.
hahahahha :D
sat with stephanie during that chung's lesson.
she was nagging&nagging.
steph asked me how i know richard.
heh, since she's interested to know.
i tell her every single thing, from the start (:
after school, daryl,zisheng,nicholas,shaowei&alicia come to my house.
to do that lit project.
they were like playing la.
stupid , rlly like kids can !
heh. cant blame daryl la.
he's my little brother (:
they were all bloody interested in my dog lor.
steph&lilian claims that its SCARY .
its so not true.
they are just afraid of dogs, thats all (:
walked alicia home,
saw leokmin on the way.
she looked the same though.
skinny,fair,tall & FLAT =X
hahahahhahah.
sorry la leok D:
okay, there's some improvements (:
JIAYOU EH ! (: :D
ohmy, im like so mean la =/
wth ? people are mistaking me for joelynlee okay.
i dont look like her.
she's much more cuter , sumpa
AHHH !
so much work to do in so little time T.T
english,maths,history&lit.
someone, save me la !
& my bloody phone is with steph.
heh, finger cross.
i hope she wont murder my phone D:

today, i didnt have a chance to see you.
i lifted my head up.
but you turned away.
heh, i rlly wish.
you would look back at me, like you used to.
but i know, it will never happen.
you have your "girl" in mind.
& i promise i'll help you.
yes, its A PROMISE.
i never break my promises,
zhe gei ye bu li wai.
time is hurting me more&more
unbearable, i just wish i could just die off.
heh, but i have a promise to complete.

070706
though it ended,
my love for you hasnt (:
i'll wait like a fucking bitch.

2006-07-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

people, dont mind me
of saying those F thingys
was not in anymood la.
FUCKING SAD. =X
was bored all the way.
since morning till now.
haven't touch my history homework yet.
not intending to do anyway.
used the com till 3.30 when rebecca called.
she's jio-ing me out.
& im smart enough to know where she's jioing me to.
the beach ~
heh. with jomeo ofcos (:
went to loyang point to wait for her.
heh, she rlly take her own sweet time yeah ?
while waiting, i saw this guy.
he looked familiar.
oh. i remembered.
aloysius :D
i was shocked la !
i dont dare to look at him ,
dont ask why.
he was with other school people ?
heh, dont know la.
anyway, took her 15mins can.
i thought i could see ian there.
but narh, isn't any luck.
i want to say my hello to him la
hahah -.-
went to busstop to wait for jomeo.
& again, he's taking his own sweet time
like ruliet. :D
anyway, saw berdene ? ( its not spelt like that, but sounded like that :D )
she's pretty (:
rebecca told me that she's the one.
whom had beaten _____ up.
i was like. WOW
she dont looked a girl who will beat people up lor !
heh, dont ever judge the book by its cover. (:
she seems nice to me (:
& FINALLY ~ jomeo came.
saw cw too (:
he sounded sick ?
heh, XIUWEI ~ he need your care girl (:
haha.
took 359 & then 403 .
tou pai jomeo for ruliet (:
hahaha (:
THEY BOTH ARE LIKE FUCKING QUIET LOR !
wlous, wei nan wo sia.
i regretted going ?
jomeo's shy (:
haha & so is ruliet.
went to rock12
he sat one corner while me&rebecca sat on the other side.
finally, i cant stand them anymore.
i talked to jomeo.
asking him to talk to her.
i dont know wth he's talking lor.
so like super soft ?
i only heard. "im shy"
LOL. managed to beg rebecca to sit down NEAR him (:
i sat in the centre.
feeling like a total light bulb.
called ivan & slowly, i walked away.
without them noticing (:
YAY ! (:
i sort of pangseh them ?
i didnt mean it okay.
im making chances for them :D
403 took a super long time okay.
i was heng enough that bus3 came right after i alighted from 403 (:
reached home at 1906 (:
was just late by 6mins laaaa.
& i know a secret (:
haha.
& STEPHANIE KOH SHIH MIN !
I AINT A DOG LA
WLOUS LOR
I NEITHER LOOK LIKE ONE NOR ACT LIKE ONE.

im loving you more&more.
fucking hell, who can ever stop this feeling ?
xi huan yi gei ren, shi xinfu hai shi tong ku.
heh, its a hard question.
TONG KU ~
i've not much energy left.
to like you any further.
im lost for words.
i dont wish to see you tmrw =/

2006-07-15T21:22:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to ahma's house.
was rlly dying there okay.
heh, my cousins were all not there.
msged xiuwei since morning. (:
im loving her more&more la
she understand how i feels. (:
yes, she does.
& bloody hell , ivan doesn't want to tell me THAT BIG SECRET.
blast him down la.
after that, went to jurong point.
& I SAW CHYNA !
(: yes, that pretty babe (:
bought a bag, top, earrings, necklaces & a toy chain (:
hehs (:
my fuckedup brother is rlly getting on my nerves la.
sometimes, he can be kind.
sometimes, rlly. buaytahan.
rahs. >:(
went to mccafe to have our desserts.
i dont know what i want la.
then ~ i saw this.
OREO ROMEO CHEESECAKE.
(: i had this , with iced chocolate.
had four of the cheesecake though.
im starting to like cheesecake.
oreo romeo cheesecake , i meant. :D
when i reached home.
i msg-ed cw.
asking him not to be angry with xiuwei.
he's not.
he says that he's just upset & disappointed thats all.
yeahs, i know how he feels la.
& again,
we sort of agured .
heh, we are rlly like opposites la.
he care about the future,
whether he can last with xiuwei anot.
cause he doesn't want to be hurt in the end.
while i.
i dont care .
to me, future doesnt matter
i cared about the present.
what for think so much ?
why cant just think about the present.
& tresure every moment with your loved one.
i dont care if i rlly get hurt in the end.
heh. tsktsk.
me&him. have different things in our minds.
ohwell.
ivan's selling his brakes.
... just to buy that bearbag for me.
heh, i feel so damn bloody bad la.
i rlly dont mind him, giving me a super belated bdae present
a brake leis
can cause death .
fuck me la. i shouldn't had asked him to buy for me.
fuck fuck fuck fuckfuck.
IF, IF ..
you have a stead.& you know,
the very next day.
he/she would break up with you.
what will you do ?
(A) break up with him/her , immediately. before he/she hurt you.
(B) spent the last moment with him/her
i guess, cw would choose (A)
& me. (B) [:

i want to be your closest daugther again.
that daughter whom you shared your joy with.
that daughther whom you shared your secrets with,
that daugther whom you tells everything to.
cause..
i want to know your everything
it does matter to me.
DADDY ~ LCD ME.

i think, im infected with love.
he's bad.
he flirts.
he smoke.
he lied to me.
he doesnt make a good boyfriend.
he has dirty thoughts.
he jio girls & stead with them, as he claims its fun.
those bad points , im clear & aware of it.
but still, i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.
i love you so damn much.
just because of one reason.
a big reason.
making me forget, about him.

i thought we would last.
wo xiang, wo zhi shi yi xianq qin yun
shou bu ke neng de shi.
heh,iwantmyromeoback

why cant the world be virtual ?
in this way, i wont have to face reality.
which has cause me much hurt.
heh. I CANT FACE REALITY.
TOO PAINFUL.
but still,in the end.
i still have to.
its life.
im not fated to be with him anyway.
GIVE ME SOME TIME
.& I PROMISEI WILL FORGET ABOUT HIM
AND BE HIS GUAIGUAI DAUGTHER.

2006-07-14T20:16:00.000-07:00

yesterday was funny okay.
chatted with stephanie (:
haha. she ah.
can rlly make me laugh like mad sia.
before her.
i called someone.
then i thought she was conferencing with him la.
but ~ im like so stupid la
him : hello
me : ya.
him : huh ?
me : stephanie .. ?
hin : (slient)
me : conferene me & her together la ! ( i was shouting )
him : she hung up ler
me : oh. sorry
then i kup the phone.
its like rlly so ps lor !
heh. & my aunty says that she's loud.
haha, got sleepy & went back to sleep (:
heh. i woke up at 7 today.
not feeling well la.
wasn't in any mood.
& my aunt, has gone to china D:
for a week.
bloody hell im gonna miss her la
going ahma's hse later.
SIAN HALF

heh,
i guess he's rlly advoiding me.
i cant do anytime much.
he doesnt know.
how much i want to be with him
he doesnt know.
how i feel when he said he wants a breakup
he doesnt know
bloody hell, how much he had hurted.
other relationships.
i can put down, easily.
but i think, he will be the first.
the first one.
he's gotten be hard to let go.
he let me forget,
the past, that guy whom i loved so long.
heh. it all came to an end.
& again. i cant do anythingy.
just watching aside,
seeing him with other girls.

2006-07-14T05:43:00.000-07:00

god, today is not good okay.
D:
maths was the first period.
heh, how boring can this gets .
lilian went to the toliet.
after 5 mins, i turned my head.
to check whether she's back anot.
but narh, i got worried la.
so i ran out. to find her.
& there she was.
coming down from the stairs.
i asked her.
where she go.
she said toliet.
& stomp off.
heh, i know that she's pekchek with smth la.
next, was english.
BORING LA.
stephanie again. told me smth (:
was rlly rlly rlly happy lor.
tsk , she&him fought.
stupid reasons.
lilian also told me why she's not in the mood
heh. & again. another fight.
ohwell.
recess was quite lor.
lilian didnt talk much.
i missed your evil laughter girl.
haha :D
during upper sec recess,
i went up . to find ivan & him (:
passed by 4/3 class.
& you know what i saw ?
i saw, richard.
hiding at the back door.
is he advoiding me ?
heh, okay i huanlo la.
since he want to be like that.
let it be.
i'll face the facts.
then ~ i turned.
i saw him, staring at me.
i SMILE (: WIDELY.
& he , smile back
((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
heh ^^
so. i guess he's not ?
or is he ?
ohwell. AHH !
talked to him.
he's rlly hyper shy lor.
tsktsk.
chinese was bored.
then, assembly.
clarance was rich enough to buy a tie lor.
7$ , tsktsk :D
assembly was as boring as usual la.
heh, lilian & stephanie cant stop their craps la.
they were calling me a dog -.-
THEIR DOG.
& played monster in the mirror.
tsktsk !
haha. & finally, lilian was back to her old self (:
after school, saw ivan they all outside school.
he told me that jg & bastard gonna fight & asked if i want to see show
im like. wow
SECTWO VS SECFOUR.
who wins ?
haha. see for yourself later lor . "D
went to HSC ,find cleo.
first, cleo called me.
say that she will be late.
cause need to take some tickets la.
then, jabez called.
asking where am i.
he told me that cleo is in ws, mcd.
im like wth.
she told me that she's in school lor.
WLOUS LA.
nevermind, jabez came.
& he thought that those ahbeng were going to beat him up.
he rlly think too much la.
THEN ~ i called ivan
wanting to know the results.
HAHA ! SEC TWO LEIS !
IM LIKE HIGH HIGH HIGH ^^
WAY THE GO LA JG (:
haha. was like so shocked la.
he's so small size compare to bastard
saw heidi (: OHMY ~
haha.
soon, i called xiuwei.
& pangseh, cleo&jabez.
sorry la hor.
went back to school with xiuwei (:
yeahs.
haha,soon.
CG were out.
& went home with joelle (:
she's nice lor (:
haha. the way she talks.
so funny la.
haha. :D
im starting to like her more&more la
. & the best part is that,
she lived at 231 while i lived at 232
haha :D

im fucking irritated by this fucking attitude of yours
you dont know how selfish you are.
you only think of yourself, FIRST.
you never spare a thought for people.
your friends, or should i say me..
why cant you congrats me, like my other friends do ?
why do you always, ALWAYS treated me so cold when im in a relationship.
why oh ,fucking why.
whatever shit it is , i dont care anymore.
i've friends. friends who stand by me when i need them

people think that i've gotten over you.
people think that i will not be upset
people think that i will not cry.
yeahs, thats why they think.
they will never understand.
those complicated stuffs i undergo.
any kind souls are kind enough to buy me vodka
i need to get drunk, tonight.
its the only way.
to say byebye to the pain&sorrows.

2006-07-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

heh.first period was art (:
need to design some shoe which is due on monday.
ahhh, not enough time for me , the greatest desinger, to design a shoe okay :D
anyway, then need to do some cartoon drawing ?
yeahs, need to draw eyes,nose,mouth,ear&hair.
haha, mr fabian lim draw like machiam.
haha, me&steph were laughing like mad la.
THEN ~
steph told me smth & i went high ^^
though it doesn't concern me
but, im happy for her :D
& i also know that him, knew the truth.
heh. i didnt expect him to know lor.
hais. >:(
anyway, it was pe.
D: BADMINTON.
i hate it so so much la.
heng, i didnt sweat much today (:
got dulan with mapang okay.
he doesnt want to hang over the keys to us la.
how fucking irritating can he gets ?
came chinese.
& i was not in the mood la.
things were running through my head.
i rlly dont know okay.
everyone thought that i was crying.
im not okay.
im seriously fine.
haha, the funnest part is when daryl pass me a packet of tissue
& asked me not to cry :D
aww, thats how sweet my little brother is
haha.
i already treat him as my REAL didi ler
hahahahah :D
english need to do some letter writting.
was not in totally mood la.
out of no where,
ivan popped out.
LOL, he told me somethings.
that also made me high ^^ .
haha :D
mskang didnt come today.
heh, was rather boring
misschen was like, dao-ing all the way.
i dont like okay.
when i talked to yuenian.
she gave me that stupid look la.
bitchy, whatever.
finally, school ended.
yuanyun,sihui,stpehanie&lilian went home.
while me,yijie&alicia stayed back for the AMC thingy.
heh, was bored bOrED BORED .
so .. i decided to miss call my little brother & shaowei
haha, it was so much fun.
(: , daryl really can make me laugh :D
after that. met xiuwei at canteen.
yeah, she was waiting for her dear.
& we were like drawing on her body lor.
EVERYWHERE.
her hand, her leg, her lips, her ear. haha
simply everywhere la.
then cheewai came, went off. (:
richard was there too la.
xiuwei stopped me from talking to her.
as she wants me to talk to him ?
heh, its like impossible la.
when we reached ws.
i asked xiuwei to pei me.
but ~ that stupid cheewai say that she must pei him
& she's his.
im like, no lor. you shutup la.
SHE'S MINE !
& he agured.
LALALALAs.
he asked him one stupid question la.
" you want me or her ? , you choose "
haha. stupid la.
then ~ he did his que chao.
hahaha.
he sat on the ground like a kid.
& sort of kick his legs la.
& say ' i want xiuwei '
LOL la.
super funny la.
its like when a mummy dont wan let her kid have an icecream
then the kid will just sit down & nag.
haha :D
soon, i was kind enough to give up xiuwei to him okay :D
THANK ME.
headed off to loyang point (:
& & & & I SAW IAN TAN WEI JIAN !
haha, he didnt recognize me , i guess ?
oh well :D
after tuition, ate oreo cheesecake.
yummy, it tasted nice lor.
(:
& ZEKE IS REALLY REALLY VERY NICE ~
i thought he say he but me 14 fish is for fun de.
but i didnt expect it, that he would actually buy for me !
((((((((:
yeahs , overall . he's a nice person (:

i didnt put much hope into this relationship,
cause i knew, from the start, you never loved me.
it has all ended, happily (:
surprisingly, im not feeling any hatred or upset.
shi yin wei, ni rang wo ming bai, xin fu ke yi na mo jian dan de.
DADDY ~ you still owe me 10 mentos -.-
i dont care (:
i can find a better stead then you .
but definely, never find a better daddy than you (:
so in the end,
i was not much needed by anyone.
but im happy&glad enough to have true friends by my side when i need them most.
XIUWEI,STEPHANIE,ALICIA,LILIAN,IVAN&JASMINEENG
thank god for giving me such good friends (:

NOT EVERY JULIET NEEDS A ROMEO (:

DADDY & NUER .
IT WILL STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER.
NO MORE CHANGES :D

2006-07-12T02:29:00.000-07:00

hmms
i went mcd early today.
so i sat there, waited for him.
heh, it was so damn bloody cold la.
i was freezing there okay.
then , i felt someone pulling my bag.
LOL. i turned, him (:
he : ehs, raining leis
me : or
he : you want take cab to school ?
me : err, dont need la. we walk
i wanted to say him la.
but narh, haha
rich eh.
we reached school, wet
D: , but nevermind.
at least, i've walked to school with him (:
first, was history.
boring as ever.
won't talk much about it.
then came CME
did some stupid questions la.
Q1 : briefly describe the world you live in.
Q2 : can you make the difference in the world ? explain.
heh, 10marks each.
i wrote loads of bullshit la
& daryl sat beside me (:
haha, he made me laugh like hell la.
like so cute la.
haha. he can be my brother leis.
cause he really act&looks like one (:
when i scold him, he would just diam diam
haha :D
maths, was the last period D:
some angmo's came in our class to do some video taking thingy.
LOL, wenhui went crazy over an angmo YANDAO :D
haha, he was beside TANLILIAN.
how lucky can she gets la. :D
after the lesson, lina asked him
how tall is he.
he answered : ME ? 1.97m . you ?
i was like WOW!
he's really super super tall lor.
did the SBL
got pekchek la.
stephanie&lilian dont want let me see that letter okay.
D: rahs.
nevermind . dont be so kapo.
while walking out of the school.
lilian said that he called me.
but i dont knoe why, i dont want to turn & say bye to him la.
i just walked off, just like that.
wlous, i feel so darn fucking bad la D:
hais.
THEN ~ i heard a fucking great news lor.
haha, was really really high ^^
she make a good chioce (:

i know its stupid. but heh, i cant do anything much.
you dont know how much i want to be with you.
though its just a 5 mins walk, it can rlly make my day.
what they called, the slient movie.
didnt talk much. but im loving it :D

suddenly, i felt so darn weak.
its not because of you, or is it ?
fucking hell la.
im not in the right mood today.
i want to cry out loud.

2006-07-11T06:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAE TO DARYL AW (:

im pissed today la .
wth can.
morning, we gave xiuwei her present
haha.
she's like super ps
her face all went red & LOADS of people were lookin at us lor.
& AHGONG DOESNT KNOW HOW TO WEAR A BRA
haha.
super funny la.
first was lit.
heh, was fun talking to daryl la.
haha. zhisheng is a quite clever kia
rlly lor. he's like so smart la :D
after recess, was the health screening thingy.
heh, was BORING.
& clarance got pekchek with lilian ?
cause she kept disiao-ing him la.
" CLARACNE LIKES YUENIAN "
heh, he said she got too far.
ohwell.
we missed out teacher yuan's lessons.
how saddening yeah ?
haha.
we all thought we could skipped that oldfreak's lessons la.
but narhs.
hais, i was sleeping la.
her lessons can rlly kill me.
i loved maths so so much lor.
give this type of kp teacher teach.
heh, i won't learn much
after maths was SBL
teacher was talking & talking & talking.
we didnt even touch the com la
D:
ohyah. & the lit's play.
GRANDMAMMA ONE : NICHOLAS
GRANDMAMMA TWO :ZHISHENG
NARRATOR : ME (:
WITCH ONE : SHAOWEI
WITCH TWO : ALICIA
BOY : DARYL
haha, i think its gonna to be interesting lor (:
ahah :D
dance was cancel last minute.
so i waited for CG people (:
i saw _______ looking at her.
awww, he was looking&looking&looking.
& he never got his eyes off her.
tsktsk. (:
then ~ joelle suddenly break down la.
until super jialut.
so me, steph, xiuwei & cheewai went to see her lor.
(((((((((((:
more like, im crapping with steph nia.
& I LOVE THOSE GREEN JOLLIBEANS LOR
(: super hyper nice,
& it got to do nth about the green jacket guy okay
went back school.
i thought he went home.
but narh, he's still there (:
happy leis :D
okay people,
im such a kindsoul okay.
i helped IVAN PEH okay okay okay ~
he doesnt want to patch with his ex.
so im here to help him (:
kind hor. yeahs, i know (:
:D
her : hello .
me : yar, im ivan's meimei
me : you still like ivan ar ?
her : ya
me : oh, he doesnt want you to be sad. but to tell you honestly. he got stead ler.
so ehs, i think you can find a better guy than him ba.
her : or
me : ya, you wait ah, ivan want to talk to you.
( pass the phone to him )
( he wants me to act out as his "gf" la , but i dont want
so left with steph & rebecca. so who ? )
( ahah, rebecca lor (: )
rebecca : hello, im ivan's gf
ivan : ya, MY GF
her : nolor, hen fake lor
ivan: haiyah, whatever shit is it.
i dont want to patch with you okay
BYE BYE
wlous, how hurting lor.
tsktsk.
jiaqi,rebecca,lilian,stephanie,anges&xiuwei so mean can.
kept pushing me to him.
ahhh. D:
lilian cant stop her craps -.-
heh, went to find lilian's bestfriend :D
wow, her office hor.
so shiok can.
im gonna visit her often (:
we chatted,
ahaha. funny man !
then, bloody hell, it started to pour heavily.
heard a knock at the door.
oh. IVAN ~
he was asking who is stephanie la.
i diedie dont want to tell.
i was wondering why he want to know lor.
then ~ outside. heh heh _______ !
(:
yeahs, he was holding an umbrella (:
ITS LIKE SO DARN BLOODY SWEET LOR !
we left _______ & _____ alone (:
aww aww aww aww aww awww.
haha, sorry people. :D
went home. (:
jabez called, at that time im super pekchek la.
met him at my house downstairs.
told me somethings, that got me more pekchek.
sorry la , if i've shown you attitude
i didnt mean it . D:
& XIUWEI IS RLLY VERY SWEET ! (:

LOVES ! ♡ BABY BABY says:
hahaha

; LOVES ! ♡ BABY BABY says:
OHYEAH !

XIUWEI : I'VE TRIED YOUR BREAD !
xiuwei : DAMN NICE LA
xiuwei : hahahahahs

xiuwei: I LOVE JOELYN ~

xiuwei: hahahahahahs

me:haha

10 cuts, & i dont feel any pain.

10 years of sisterhood & you treated me like that.

fine. whatever. D:

no matter what, i sweared , to be your bestest bestest sister forever.

i wont take back my words.

i cant stop myself from thinking,

of losing you.

i know that im shy.

but i'll try my very best not to.

ai yi ge ren, yao hen duo de yong qi.

dan ~ wo mei you.

i've no courage to love you deeper.

im just afraid i might lose you just someday

i dont want to be hurt again .

2006-07-10T05:55:00.000-07:00

heh, was doing the scrpit.
ahhhh. my head really can go kaboom !
T.T , so many things to do in so little time.
sectwo hao xin ku la ! -.-
today went to mcd. met dear (:
yarhs, didnt really talk la.
was both shy :D
reached school, was wondering where's lilian.
THEN ~ she shouted : R&J
he got ps & went off.
LOLs ahahas.
ivan gave me a stupid face & lilian called him a retard.
ahahs :D
blind people also can see he's a retard la.
ahahs KD ! (:
& i got my lollipop (:
thank you ah (:
first period was history.
sian dao ~ D:
heh, im loving home ec more&more leis ! (:
i parthner with siti as tiara didn't come school again.
hais. T.T
did chocolate muffins which tasted SUPER NICE !
(: , tried alicia's one.
okay la.
then clarance's. yeahs NICE (:
was sweet enough (:
cop one from manpang.
ahahs :D
ruben was selfish enough for not sharing !
hmphs ! SELFISH LEIS -.-
mdm chung is rlly so kp la.
now i then know why,
stephanie hate her so darn much.
i dont know wth happen to her la.
she gave us her fucking bad attitude.
siao gi na la.
stupid ~
i didnt have the chinese compo thingy that yuan teacher gave .
so i decided to copy the questions from alicia.
wlous, then she go con those papers.
like wth la. fuck her leis.
she want to punish also punish me right.
its not even alicia's fault lor.
after school, alicia came my house (:
did the lit thingy (:
heh, okay we were just playing my com la .
haha.
she msg-ed ivan (:
i wanted to prank call him de.
then he called me, sounded super pekchek.
heh, i thought i made him pekchek la.
but narh.
personal matters :D
BGR LOR. :D
haha, should i help him ?
hmmms.
well, i dont know la.
depends on my mood tomorrow ! :D
cause he needs to give an answer to her (:
& mummy bought me some cute dogs that can sing ?
LOLs. super cute la.
let see ,
zeke's buying me 14 guppies & a fish tank.
ivan's buying me that bear bag (:
yuanyun & yjie buying me some blinkblink & longlong :D
xiuwei,stephanie,sihui&lilian. i dont know what are they buying me :D
jeremy's buying me two hamsters (:
YAY ! finally, an excuse to keep hamster (:
wlous, then my house is like zoo liao lor -.- !
dog, hamster, fish . LOLs

IM LOVING YOU MORE&MORE

2006-07-08T22:22:00.000-07:00

IT STARTED WITH A KISS <3

wow, yesterday chatted with loads of people okay.
first, jeroel called (:
was shocked okay.
he last called me since .... last year ?
ahahahs :D
yeahs. he injured his leg la.
get well soon okay ? :D
then ~ we kup down ler.
not long, ivan called.
he was riding with jeremy they all lar.
he was bullshit-ing all the way.
he claims that he's one yandao&cutie.
ohplease la ! im gonna faint.
he's damn super bhb lor.
& bloody hell, he wants to pinch me -.- !
he dare, i kick him sehs.
stupid lame kia ~
jeremy&leon were gong enough to believe that i want a patch with bastard.
tsktsk.
they dont have a single clue that i stead
ahahahs. a bunch of bendans.
ivan : ehs, joelyn, later my friend msg you can ?
me : oh can. who ?
ivan : jeremy lor
me : ohhhhs. :D
ivan : oi, jeremy . joelyn say hor later if you want to msg her. must let me see first, then can msg.
ivan : & she also say, that im the most cutest guy leis. PLUS ! she wants to patch with bastard.
me : WTH LA ! IVAN !!
i was screaming & shouting on that bloody phone la.
THEY ACTUALY BELIEVE LOR !
after 72mins, BYEBYE (:
at 1135 , my phone rang.
was wondering it was who
heh, DEXTER ~
after 15mins. kup ler .
was too tired to go on talking la.
tuition was sian as ever.
did some exposition thingy.
heh, i did pretty good okay (:
after tuition, it started to rain D:
awwww. T.T
ohyah, & zeke promised me to buy me 14 guppies&a fish tank .
for my bdae present.
as one of my guppies just died D:
he's super nice la (:
okay people, i'll stop.
i need to do lit (:

JEROEL WANSHUI

2006-07-08T04:56:00.000-07:00

heh, im back (:
yesterday, i dont know what i did to my phone la.
then the sim card tio locked.
ahhhh! so ps for those late reply of messages yeahs ?
went to school early today.
i thought i was the first one to reach.
but narhs, some of them were there already.
then ~ one of the AVA boys were singing.
wow, its like so nice la.
nicer than wilson's :D
rlly. i liked his voice :D
ahhhahas.
he sang kiss you goodbye.
awwwww. NICCCEEEE LAAAAAA.
ahahahs.
we went to musicroom.
changed, had our hairs&makeup done.
then zoom , off we went (:
ha, i thought we were dancing outside the bookshop.
but i was so wrong la.
we danced at the prarade square.
under that super hot sun .
its damn hot okay.
our makeups all melted ler -.- !
ahahs.
i was darn tired la.
we danced three times okay.
& plus the choir people is so noisy.
hais. no peace la.
it was nice talking to clarice&liying (:
i saw those CG members playing the drums.
& THEN ~ i spotted 310 :D
i rlly gotten admit.
he's so damn cool. :D
too bad lilian's not here.
ahahs :D
she missed out the "fun" (:
~~bet~~ she's super jealous now.
thats too bad lor.
there's nth i can do la ahahahs.
i waited for yijie outside the staffroom.
heh, it took her so long la.
walked to interchange with yijie (:
saw ms mak on the way .
& IVAN OWES ME A LOLLIPOP ! :D

IM DEADLY IN LOVE.
WITH HIM & ONLYHIM (:
SMAUCKS x3